Can you kill negative words?

Something just was said to me by someone and I said cancel cancel and I saw maybe I imagine it the words in the air being destroyed like I sent out missiles to destroy them like a small explosion.

So words can be canceled and also is how you received them I did not want to receive those words immediately I cancel it.

Thoughts are flowing:

So if negative words can be canceled hey someone who hates you can cancel positive words  once they know how too. That is why in Isaiah it is said what it says.. wow
The bible says in Isaiah 54:17 To do this, "I refute cancel condemn every tongue that rise up against me"
Read it!

So How do you receive words?
It was said  so are you going to cry?
Are you going to accept it?
Are you going to be happy or sad?

I am a child of God and I refute, deny, stop, cancel, annihilate, condemn every tongue, every words of negativity, false judgement against me and my love ones in Jesus name. Amen

I receive, accept thankfully all the blessing and prosperity inhealth and wealth of my spirit, body, mind and soul in Jesus name! Amen

Am learning

People, am reading and learning.

Books
There are books that will read, that applies like instructions  and formulas....okay.
There are some that, you just don't apply like instructions but that can cause you to evolve  into a better you. The bible even though it contains instruction It goes up to another notch. It brings life, cleansing, deliverance and more you begin to change into being Christ like.

Now I have read books maybe this is an overstatement but I am talking form where am at. I have not come across books like that often. Living words. I am living words!

 I really digging these books.

In the last blog could not  put everything there it's was conversation I was having with my only friend that I can have a conversation like that with. And I still can't reveal a lot still. I remember, I did and she stayed so long to respond back it was too much at once so am really being careful  with how I say things to her in terms of my big release of information. In spite of that though I can still have a conversion with her even though she question me about who I am listening too... haha... well she said you really love them and I said yes!

She trust me enough to make the right decisions. I do love her!
I don't want to leave anyone behind.

They too got to come up some how. I decree they will come up, and I mean learn and grasp that God is the same but He is omnipresence  all powerful, all knowing, and if we as human evolves isn't it because He is an evolving God.

I know It is said He changes not. But He changes not on the things He said, But there is so much other things He has not said or is saying and we are not hearing. Well I decree am hearing, will hear and do in Jesus name! Amen.
We can't evolve unless He evolves too, we were created in his image and likeness Genesis 1 and Psalms 82 says we are gods, children of God.

Jesus said to the man/men when he asked him are you the son of God and he said you have said it and It is written it is said, ye are gods. This is during his trials period all was not said at specific point but it was said.

(Look it up in your bible you will find it. If  I give u chapters all the time it would just be to easy you need to learn to look and read no wonder the place is like how it is teach people how to fish  after you have given them a couple of fish to eat and gather strength). Being me!

I am just reminded By the Holy Spirit of revelation5:8-9
Pocket of mercy to create  a circle for your loves ones, the prayer of the saints prayers will not go unanswered.

Pray for them they will be in a pocket of mercy!

talking to friend got a brain storm

kerina Foster said (11:34 AM)
God wish that I may propser
kerina Foster said (11:36 AM)
the understanding of who we are must first start with teh understanding of who I am
kerina Foster said (11:37 AM)
when I know who I am I can creat like he did in the beginning
and change global issues
help my brother and sister
kerina Foster said (11:38 AM)
don't you think it's weird that teh poor try to convert the rich to Christianity
and I don't meena money
 poor I mean mentality poor
kerina Foster said (11:39 AM)
you can have no money and still be rich for you can creat your on wealth for wealth is within
am chaning my mind set
I gotto blog this
i just had a brain storm

kathleen says
yh  of course its in  us  spiritually, mentally,physically we dont have it, God gave us the  power  toget  wealth  but girl we  need   ideas, channels, connection etc

anyway  wealth doesnt have to mean moneyetc,,,,its being bless  with long  life,,healthy,,favour etc
but  for cryingoutloud  i  wantsome touchable wealth

The dream about the soil

I am the soil, from dust you were taken and dust you will return.
I have to plant the seeds in me seeds of good and rightful thinking.

The water is the Holy Spirit it will accelerate accordingly.
Spending time in the word, prayer and gaining Godly Knowledge.

Elaboration is for another time....

So what is that other name?

Don't you think I revealed a lot of personal things and experience even though their is still a lot more that I have not said that ties in everything  and other things.

I have so many names here it's not funny and non is by marriage, I have not reached there as yet, naturally.

Foster my mothers last name, Murray my fathers last name, and I had to do some correction so now I have to carry both so people can identify me, for all my life until a couple of months ago  because of polices that are being implemented I have to carry my father's last name.

Well me being me, "they weren't even married to each other so why"....Blah blah blah If you want to continue with Foster you have to do it legally.

And that my friend is legal fees, imagine that my mothers name haha

Naturally I don't want to let that one out there. I want to have something for myself not everyone have to know at least not yet.

What to do

Seek first the  Kingdom of God and His righteousness, 

and all these things will be given to you as well. Mathew 6:33

PUT GOD FIRST!

I found another favourite book! Two

I have new favourite books, and I have not even finish reading them, I just got them today and I feel in myself these two books will be good.

I like intriguing books, that awakens and stirs you, like a fresh wind that blows over a hot summer day, when you least expect it, even though you were hoping for it. It does not just stay in providing information you actually feel life, life in the words you are reading.

That is how I feel when I read 'Touching the heart of God' and these two books wow and wow.

Well I receive them today pray to the Holy spirit  to bring understanding revelation wisdom open my heart to be receptive to the words, help my to grow and develop in Jesus name Amen.

Bounce back

Although My family at an early age would call me names, because of my dream and I was outspoken the things they use to say would hurt my feeling but I always use to bounce back, It did not matter the day before I was still a chatta-box sharing my thoughts and opinions. Who wrong and who right. I remember I had a friend and she would come by our house and spend the day or afternoon on Saturdays and my mom got  vexed.
She  was a child that touched and troubled everything. Mommy said out loud. "I don't like when shelly comes here she touches everything". She watched me and said, "you going back to say what I say". "I said no but you can tell her stop touching you things". (you can imagine how she responded to me)

Well we went town that same day, we where going to her mother my grandma place.  We met shelly and her mom in town, well my mom talking to her mother and we kids talking. I remember my mom and her mom finished talking, my mom done turn off and she and her mom as well, but I went back and tell shelly, "mommy say you  gonna can't keep coming by us if you keep on troubling she things so you have to stop it you hear". etc (hey I was not even eight as yet) Because of this she stop coming by the house totally and some tension......lol  They got over it.

Not my fault parents need to talk to parents about their children misbehavior and on how they can correct them accordingly correctly. Don't wait until they gone and start talking about there children behind there back and in front of your children. Hello!

Then you going to say those or them kids like to be in big people business when big people not fixing their business, sombody got too...lol.  I am just laughing about this now. I set things straight.......lolol Bounce back!

I don't know what I was thinking but I believe that you should tell people how you feel make life easy and straight forward not talk behind them back it irritates me. I also learn you got to keep certain things so use wisdom.

However I use to bounce back until  I got older  realize what they were saying, stop talking, got quiet, shy all sort of things.
I use to write and draw how I feel and throw them away or keep it inside.

We have to learn how to Bounce back!

After all of that Bounce back!

Fathers

My  dad was not in my life that I can recall, the way a father should have. My  memories of what I can recover at such an early age are few, but I do remember that he told me one of my middle names meant 'African princess', and I do remember travelling with him on an airplane and that was it the rest is just negative and am not going there.

But he telling me what my name meant, one of my name not mention on the blog here means 'African princess', I grew up feeling I was a princes sometimes a lost princes from her kingdom, when my family members would reject me. When I fantasied, I would fantasied that I  was a lost African princess from her tribe being rescued etc. 

That is how I felt about me all because my father said my name meant that. I was a princess, African one to boot. I felt I had royal blood inside of me, I grew up feeling marked with something special, I remembered in high school I was saying it out load some of my friends laughed and said you wish, but this one time, this girl happened to hear me and she believed she actually believed  and I even believed more that day.... but something happen along the way.

The point am drawing here is also from my Favorite book. 'Touching the heart of God', he mentioned that fathers should bless their houses the writer was referring to the pastors and their churches 

His ref was Jacob blessing his sons naming them according to their character, traits etc.

Although my dad was not there, he left something profound with me, that is one why I had such an high standard because when you are royalty you just can't be any old how... I was not stock up.

Anyway I went to research the meaning of my name It is actually Arabic means 'excellent'. I like the meaning  both my dad and what I found but it sounds funny. (the name)

It's important for Fathers to bless their children, spiritual and physical. 

My believe because he was Father and he said 'African princess' I believe that is what it is ....just my opinion.

Always knew what I wanted and looking for

I know that sometimes we can become weary and tired of waiting, am aware we may have friends and family telling us girl  or boy what are you waiting move on. Your dreams and expectation they are not a reality they are too high you need to be more realistic.

You are just a dreamer a day dreamer you living in a fantasy; well I have to tell you, your dreams can become a reality!

 I am reminded of Job wife when she told him to, "Are you still holding on to your integrity.... curse God and die" Job2:9. Holding on to your dreams, beliefs, standards....

Don't give up and God, for He wont give up on you.
this may represent some people around you telling you to move on let go as I was saying in the above.

If you are in doubt about anything I have to say wait on God, am not talking about doubting God and His word for His words are sure.
I am talking about your personal endeavors, choices, situation that you may have to make daily, sometimes or whenever.
I know You may say God is or suppose to be in everything, Yes He is; but you have a choice that you have to make on your own and He will not make it for you.

I heard a man of God say, "if in doubt don't do it". He is one of them that I have dreamed about and have had visions and I Love him with the love of Christ. He helped me last year with his teaching and the sweet anointing upon his life Emotional healing came through, However was still angry and it was hard to let go of the bitterness that  rose in me, but His teaching and anointing along with other things such as praying and reading the word and other type of anointing I came in contact with from men of God.

And God Himself touched me and is still today, and I know He was there all long and will always be there with me.

I always knew what I wanted, no doubt about it, but after so many years of having everything look bleak and contrary and the influence I let in; thinking I was strong enough not to be influence by that energy. They where sowing seeds and I was not.  I listened and started to think about what they are saying reasoning out what if they are right, not that I was not praying but I started to reason out what if maybe, I am too of a dreamy person so-to-speak.

You know sometimes

When you have to do something or say something you get  panic attacks, Got to come against them in the name of Jesus for He did not give you a spirit of fear but boldness. Fear is a useless emotion gets you no where if you  succumb to it.

Don't let fear surround you, it's not good feeling at all!
After that fear brings doubt and make you weak for now, you don't know which way to go, question everything and everyone makes you unstable.
Jehovah God do not want that at all in our lives.

James 1:8 "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways"

Fear make you double minded because one time it's up, another it's down, then another it's left and so-on.....

Fear = False evidence appearing real.

Don't run away

I read reports of nasty words and things they say,
but please don't run away.
I know it can be painful and hurting on the inside,
but please don't run away.

I thought of Jesus and Judas and I wonder.
Who would have betray if he did not?
I realize Judas although he played that role of the betrayer.
It was still a role that had to be played by someone.

I also realize that to fly  and soar, gain heights, you have to go against the wind.
The wind of the negative words, wrongful acquisitions, but please don't run away.
 Jesus Life and death was eminent, that showed He was and is the Savior of the world.

Don't run away be strong, although the wind blows against you, soar like the eagles.
Like a boat a drift on the waters
Let the wind take your sail.
The wind of the Holy Spirit take you on heights and in depths of the things of the God.

God did not abandon you, so
Don't abandon us, for God hears you, He speaks to you.
Don't run away!

Keep feeling this tug

I don't know right now if am long over due. But what I know right now is that I really thank you!
For your silence in disguise, your patience and love for waiting and praying; for thinking about me, and making sure that everything is right and in order.
If am long over due please forgive me, I needed more time.

More time to think and make sure this is right.
More time to think and make sure it is not my motive.
More time to think and make sure It's God's will and not mine.

Now my will is God's will for this thing is bigger than me and because of that am sure.
I did not create it, but  the most high sure did.
Thank you, I appreciate you, I love you with the love of Christ.

Yes I am sure!

Ps.. I

I bought a refrigerator of my tastes and my style and it was more than five thousand not for show and tell but it was and is my taste & my style, the way I roll with my appliances.
I dare to have an opinion!

I got upset

This morning as I was booting up my PC electricity went thank God for backup batteries.
Everyday, some days, every other day, electricity have to go, no reason most of the time, no  heads up about when it's going to go.
I have lost a printer and a refrigerator, modem for internet just like two weeks ago. Now I have heard of other persons loosing TV set, radio, refrigerator and more than once. Well I write down my feeling and thoughts on a paper, even the topic, but I don't want to call my self that, but I will share what I write.

It is really frustrating to be loosing these things and there is no compensation for your lost. I remember when I was living on my own about 4-5 years ago, I lost a printer adapter because of the going and coming of the electricity so often. Was not home to plug out the system so every time it would go and come back the printer would come on everything start to start up and go off well reported it they say they can't do anything about it I must visist the PM.

This is how I started out writing this morning before I left for church.

Topic: A Non educational fool with an opinion.

I rather put my foot in my mouth than to be kissing someone's butt
The electricity keeps going.
What is the problem? How can we get it solved? When it is going to be resolved?
Can it be solved in the five minutes you take it off and then put it back on and then  two minutes later it's  back off again and come back,  then for twenty five minutes  or maybe a little more it off again.

Now later in the day it might go again stay two hours or more come back and there is still another chance it will go off again.  Because it has happen not once, not twice, not three times, more than the fingers and toes I have.

It is creating tension, frustration and anger in the hearts of the people loosing appliances such as a refrigerator that will cost three thousand to five thousand dollars Ec and more depending on the taste of the indivual style or preferable brand etc.

It is not easy to come by, especially when the electricity charges is still so high and threats for disconnecting it is aired openly and blatantly, if you don't pay and or have it running. The people are angry and so am I.

You may suggest don't buy a so expensive refrigerator, if you have two television watch one, so that means you are saying don't expand, live life in a box, stay where you are, don't grow, don't achieve luxury and I can go on.

To me you are suggesting we all stay in poverty and from what I learn and experience poverty kills,  for it is killing your people, gang violence is so great in the country, premature death is happening all around you can't you see?
All I see is that they are trying to survive have there territory make a mark. Even though it is the wrong mark while I and other choose to live honest, they aren't.  They feel suppressed and depressed by the system for they are saying it in their words and their actions. Are you listening? Are you seeing?
Or do you choice not to listen and see?

I don''t know if it is the easy way out right now, but sure has a lot of consequence and hurting of  innocent people citizens are afraid to go in certain villages and communities. "something has to be done".

My weapons of warfare are not carnal but are mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds in high places.

So I therefore stand and put on the Whole armor of God in the name of Jesus, that I may be able to stand against the wiles of the enemy, the prince of this world.
The helmet of salvation, holding the God thoughts and feeling written words in my heart and mind.
The breast plate of righteousness, my faith and love, I have right standing in God because he has bought back my freedom from the enemy.
The belt  of truth, I know in whom I believe He is the true and only Sovereign God and Lord Adonai.
The shoes of the preparation of the gospel, the gospel of peace  and rightness and justice peace that I know Jesus is the only way there is no other, peace, to pursue peace with all men peace in the midst of trial that He is their with me even to the very end.
The shield of faith, to quench all the  fiery darts of the emeny, that surrounds every inch of me, the shield that covers me. And
The sword of the spirit the word of God to unsheathe it, to execute the written words and spoken words of God almighty, to cut to pieces every snare of the enemy!!!

My Mom

She did bring back something for me a shirt that says OMG...

It is a nice shirt.

I do love her!

I've got you covered mom.

Reading my profile

You may look at it and say if she likes reading why only a very small amount of books there, well they are my favourite.

I have not included the bible because I feel the bible to me is more than just a book. To be more honest I felt it might have been a cliche and look too spiritual.

I sure don't care how that may look  anymore.

Being Holy or doing things right has now become in the bracket of being and looking too spiritual living holy they say you too spiritual now-a-days.

I have read books that the information is helping me up to this day i still will go back and look up. use it as reference for other thing but, they are not my favorite books.

Touching the heart of God after the Bible is that I have not found another book that i really love like that one it is even falling apart now that book changed my life the way I think and how I understand things.

I have read spiritual warfare books yes they teach me how to fight and so forth but they are not my favorite books, books on deliverance and other educational books but they have not moved me the way Touching the heart of God has.
Yes they were informative enlightening and educational where you practice what they say  use them as reference but  that was all.

Maybe it's just me!

The names of people I dream about

I don't put the  names of the people I dream about here because one I don't feel I should disclose that information. Until I feel it is time then I will. I am not embarrassed by them or their ministries.

Well one thing am sure of is that am not going to be sued for having their names here, and It's just a dream am talking about  and who invaded whose dream....just saying.

I am not trying to create a scene on anyone that is not necessary.

Am sharing dreams that I experience, these people are just messengers used by God to bring Information and are also symbolizes of my daily living, some where some how they are apart of me, whether in my present or future.

Men of God in my dreams  are one arrows directing me to where I have to go.

The other people, I still don't have to mention them The most important persons are Jehovah God, Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit.

When are we going to stop and realize

We in church, in government, in organization are training our members, workers, colleagues and volunteers wrong. We are training them to look for a leader to be the only leader. If that leader is not there nothing can be done on the work or the project. Everything is stopped and stalled if someone amongst them decide well we should continue the rest complains what he or she think they are doing, or who they think they are. when the truth is we all are leaders that need to take the initiative at the right moment in time.

Also the leaders are also threaten by  others that may have an idea, a better idea than them, or may be able to execute that project better, but instead of electing and or training that person  for such a task they block them.
They are training people to look at them, and for them and only them, so when they are not there some people don't show up to church, on the job  and if they show up they do not participate and if they do there whole attention is not in it, and things get dormant until the boss come back, show up, pass by etc. Thinking no one is watching them, but God is always watching us!!

My focus is the church because the church should  be the light that shine the way to Jesus. He is the only way there is no other way but through Jesus Christ!! We as the church have to be the light Has to have the formula for Living right where business men and women would come and say show us how to run our organization to be effective, but instead they are criticizing  the church more not because of Jesus for they have proven He is a righteous man. However He is more than righteous, more than a prophet, He is the way, our salvation our door  our Lord and King coming soon for His blemish  free church bride. Are we ready?

The leaders in the  church need to realize, that if they equip and let the believers know, if they help one person or two, their neighbor, Their friends, that is in need of help,or someone else, that is in need of help, that every person that will do that, there will be a huge shift turn around in our communities country or world.

Instead they are training them, that to feed the poor they have to go through training. (not against training) 'To do unto your neighbors the things you would like them to do unto you', help you if you need help be good etc. They have to go through training be ordain to help some one, so before you do you are waiting to be ordained and anointed, to be like Christ....(OMG) when we are,  He is inside of us. The breath of Life is inside all of us. The believers and unbelievers, the believers though have come into an awaken of truth but am wondering what kind of truth have they/we come into. 'Be your brothers keeper' so to do this I have to be anointed and appointed to be my brothers keeper.

Love is not teach  in the church very often, it's other things subject matters such financial, social, gang violence, fornication and political issues etc, and they are good and needed, but love is the greatest so why not teach the greatest and the not so great things after, love cast out a multitude of sin. What are we missing? Love if i love you I would take care of you would not hurt you harm you or let you go astray I would give my life for yours GOD give his son his life for ours.

When I look at the government people blame the government for everything they want the government to do everything, why is that so is because they train them to look at them. They are the leaders the only leaders and there can be no one else beside them.
If you dare to do and be and have a voice they conclude you are against them, and to do that it only fuels that  way of thinking, to be a reality. And then you have government split, church split, people split and  everything splitting. A big split and in confusion.

Then they come on the podiums talking about electing leaders to take the initiative and so-on and then after electing them they can't do a thing. Only when and what you say when you say. and then there is confusion because the person that was elected thinks they will be able to move in there talent  to help not to divided but to build up. So now  mix messages are portrayed, the people receive mix messages, birth of confusion and perplexity.

It's all about the wrong training your body language suggest these thing you say one thing and mean another , you show in your body language how threaten you are by the other person talent or gift capabilities of  extruding their gifts and protruding their talents.(It is said actions speaks louder than words)

My bible tells me life and death is in the power of my tongue. My words I speak I can create life or cause death.

Then we talk about protocol. I believe in protocol it suppose to eliminate division confusion, jealousy hatred confusion misunderstanding etc. It is now suppose to promote the equipping disciplining, disciple-shipping of every person to recognize that their is a chief, however you all have delegated responsibilities that should be carried out respectfully. So their is either no protocol and or the protocol is also corrupt.

Then you have premature death  and drainage of the person who is the leader or leaders  they tired all the time because they have to be here their and everywhere some people get him some other  don't then more confusion because now their is grumbling he or she prefers those because he or she is always there etc more dividing.

When are we going to stop and realize that we are training ourselves wrong and our people to kill and drain us they too can do the work once given with proper instruction support system, you can't do it all by yourself.

Another issue the trust factor>>>>>

My favourite colour.

The colour is so beautiful

Lord I have a situation.

I know where I have to go, and what I have to do. How am going to get there that i don't know, but i know you are definitely with me and YOU said in my ears audible you will make my path clear that day I was startled not in so much fear but shocked, surprise and impress. ( I happen to be able to feel a lot of things at once). Me Lord!

However I knew it was you no question about that. YOU,  how clear you came to me was amazing to my surprise you would took time and come down  and I learnt you really wants our/man's attention. the GOD of the universe  SOVEREIGN is desiring our attention, gave his only son to adopt us back into righteousness amazing love. I love you lord.

Lord you know I have been broken and when something or someone is broken even when they are fixed  restored they are not the same they are either better or worst. But being restored by you is the best.  When something have been restored they may look the same, walk the same, sound the same, but it is not the same.

You have experienced something life changing and God will leave some scares he may remove some scares but as humans being restored you are not the same.
some people had life altering experience some shut down, some open up living life to the max, some people get mean and some get happy.

There are good mechanic and bad ones, a broken down car fixed by a good mechanic that took his time and years to restore spend a lot of money on it and put in some tender care on the car. Now it's brand new runs better that before.
Now the bad mechanic patch work here there charge a lot of money and the car still not fixed every minute it's back in the repair shop for something else.

Well mine was restored by God but I am not the same!
Am I better? Yes!

( do I sound like am saying you are not a good restorer that is not the case).

Lord your are the greatest physician am not worst but life is not in the same eyes i use to look at life always optimistic I am still but it not the same
 Lord men, men they a re mean creatures and I have a problem with letting go totally to them. they can confront you  with smile and so called love and still hate you eye to eye.

I see more of man's doctrine than yours, they proclaim this is the way when the truth be told it far from your way, you are a loving God and they carry so much pride for the things they achieve in life, while the majority of people suffer what kind of love is that. that is not a real achievement in your sight.
Yes Lord I know you want us to live life to the fullest enjoy the fine things of life for you did not create us to be poor and in poverty for all that is bondage and can cause premature death and all the rest.

Lord I know you understand me, help me to understand you, this way that you want me to go.....
 Lord my answer is still Yes!

Still thinking..

Still thinking about the dream okay:
Leave to go where?
When should I leave ?
What is going to happen?
Who am I going to meet?
Where am I going to stay?
What am am going to do?
Am I ready to go?

I know my steps are ordered by your words you said you make the path clear.
all I have to do is trust you, believe you will never leave me nor forsake me.
And I do.
I have a problem with trusting people now.
Help me to know the difference.
Help me to see more clear with clarity.
When am in doubt Lord it not that I don't trust you, the people Lord the people.

I love you I know No weapon formed against me will prosper my steps and ways are ordered by you and I am led by you thank you, for your mercies and kindness that endures forever and ever are with me.
I will bless the Lord oh my soul and all that is withing me bless his HOLY name.
If a earthly father can bless his sons with good gift how much more will you my heavenly father bless me.

To be honest you have been there all along even when my earthly father abandoned us so early in life, but you have been there watching and protecting and everything that have happen you were there  thank you lord.
I love you so much!

Ministering angels are creating and make crooked path straight they are driving away all the enemies with  the two edged sword.like chaffs in the wind. The wicked is a drop of water in a bucket not even worth a sacrifice The Lord will prevail victory is his name.
He is the Alpha and Omega the beginning and the end.
His infinite Love compass around me and in me.
The way is made straight Kerina move now in Jesus name/
You are covered.
You will know when the now is every time.
You are marked with the blood of the lamb be rest assured am with you always, fear not
I know you believe, so just believe. Lean on me anytime and every time I am with you.

Address and Directions to where to what?

I had a dream I woke up  thinking all about it. I was receiving direction about a job to send in the application letter, to work home on the internet I had to tear this add from the phone book yellow pages some how I was talking to this lady like on a phone but not on a phone. It was the only add on the page.


 She was telling me about the job, it's working home on the internet and then she was giving me direction but on the page in the phone book had national bank and the adrees and she was abbreviating what national bank means and the address then the voice turn over into another person voice, a man of God voice giving me more direction to the address and the word spelt out was LEAFE.

While taking down the address it was like a word puzzle to get that word LEAFE.
when he was giving me the address each time I write, I write a letter to the side and the end result is the word LEAFE

It was not leave it definitely had in an F.

Well I did pray last night about Lord order my steps in your word and other stuff don't have to mention all that here....lol I have mentioned a lot of of things here I wonder if am ridiculous.

Okay I am my biggest critic, I like perfection that is is not bad.
I have dealt with being so hard on myself so have the Lord, am not that bad anymore.

Hello I left some mistakes on this blog heyyyy life is not so perfect so my blog is not so perfect either.

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It is now 9:28 pm in the evening I did not share this part of the dream. Well in the dream the man of God that was giving me the direction in it said to me, I must address him properly correctly.

Well that part was puzzling me because I  was like I don't communicate with you like that I never addressed you in any way that would cause me to address you wrong. This is in my awaken state I was saying this to my self well today.
Most of the morning I was helping my friend  find some information online she needed and no matter what we did the information was never enough or just seemed whacked.

So earlier than now this evening she came back to conclude the information so I decided to use this person name (the most used one) nothing. I used the right one so-to-speak and it was right there. And then it hit me that was that part of the dream I had to address him correctly to find him well the information.

Well I thought to myself out loud why do dreams come in parables and symbolizes. Why not strait to the point! Well sometime they do come straight to the point but I mean  why in parables and symbolizes so often.

I like to get straight to the point.

Anyway just sharing!!!

balancing the scale.

The scale is not balance.

I see too much of God children on the low end of life while a few are on the high end of life. The scale is not balanced. We need to get some balance, in order to see the balance, everyone has to work together. The high-enders need to work with the low-enders. There is no middle ground in God. (I don't mean that you have to give up everything you own unless God say so, and that's if you do it...)

No doubt about it their will always be poor people until Jesus comes but the scale is still not balanced. There are indeed some people that need to go over form poor to whole (let me say it rich). In order to help the ones that for some reason that can't and or refuse too, whether by culture, Government policies, communism  choice, will and location etc, can't make it.
The ones that make it over need to help those that can't, to bring in supplies food, water anything everything that is needed to bring some comfort some love to them that there are people out there that care.

Tilting scales is it tilting for the better or the worst?

I was Thinking

I was thinking about my dreams and experiences are these just mere dreams just mere experiences. Am I crazy to say these things and put them out there so what is happening to me my life where am I going what am I doing

Money.

Money, why money is such a touchy topic? Why people operate the way they do around money? You loose friends over money. People die over money. Money brings you new friends, as well the lack of money can cause you to loose friends.

This represent your time, your sweat, your blood, your value, (life insurance) work ethics, education qualification>>how much you will be paid for what you do and know etc.
Some of us have been underpaid, some maybe overpaid. It represents your hard labour, the hours you spend in the field, the office, on the road, it represent your passion for what you do. Your pas ion determines how much money you will make.

Do God really wants our money? NO.

Then what does He wants with our money, if He does not really want it?  >>>> To free us from the bondage that money can cause, in terms of greed and selfishness. For us to realize what is the most important thing mammon or God. To get something back to us, bigger and better. Giving brings Liberation!!

When you can let it go, it's when it will come back to you, we hold on to it because honestly it is apart of us it's our currency to life without it we have nothing, you can't buy food, water etc. It is essential to life, it is life, and if it is life, and God is life, so money is god.... in a natural way.

So instead of worshiping the natural thing we have to convert it into the spiritual realm which will cause us to reap harvest many harvest and  be free from it, and it will come back to us..................this is a brain storm here I just experiences am only sharing it. >>>>>>>>>OMG

Well two weeks ago I had a dream, in it I was reading this script in it says I am the supplier of everything. I have everything. I supply everything etc. I read the whole thing.
I was struggling with the not having enough weeks and days before the dream and crying. It was Saturday night Sunday morning I went to sleep with a  like "whatever attitude" He came and I was reading it to the end then after He sat down on my bed and I was explain to him what I read and what I understand>>>>>>just sharing part of the dream.

We can easily give up our time. We can easily give  food. We can easily sacrifice something other than money easier. such as clothing, food hampers, charity etc. (mention in above already)

When it comes to money we watch it. We put it in a bank to gather interest. We invest it to make more and double, triple it to the maximum.
What we do with it? We buy basic necessities, pay for basic necessities.
Then we lavish ourselves with luxury living. Nothing is wrong with that!!!

Now when it comes to giving GOD, we say why should we give a GOD that has everything . He don't need our money. He said Everything is His.

Why do we have to Give? What money can do for you, when you give it to GOD sincerely, you, all by yourself can not do!

And I gave already, why do I have to give more? You give more to prove to Him that He is worth more to you than your money! You give to to shame relinquish the spirit of greed and selfishness from your life.

Money has this thing on it,  is like it is alive, it can make you become greedy or generous!
The more you keep the more greedy you become and the more you give the more generous you become. Now when I say you become, I mean your spirit, soul and body the whole you become either greedy or generous.
Giving releases you  to be free from greed and selfishness, giving consistently.

Now I know that there are days when you will have nothing at all after you have given and you happen to be somewhere and an offering or something is being picked up or a special donation is being asked well you can not give if you have nothing, you have to receive something to give. You have to be led by the HOLY SPIRIT and He will provide and when He does provide it, sow it.

The widow woman had something just enough for her and her son. The man of God requested that she bake him the cake first.

She had little and the first of the little.... this can be elaborated on.
First things blessed!!

I've been in classrooms

I've been in classrooms in my dreams many times, well I was being taught by this person  the language "Spanish" in my dream I knew what I was saying and doing when I wake up I remembered, but to repeat it not so clear.

 I tell the God we serve is omniscience He cares about how much we know if we don't we will perish.
Hosea 4:6  "lack of knowledge my people perish."

Soil

I had this dream last night or this morning, well during sleep time I was in a classroom and the subject topic was "what is soil/dirt" in the dream in the classroom I had to answer the question of I answered the question correctly.

Then another question was asked "Explain the acceleration process of water in or through soil."

Well I got up and I write down what I dream this morning I went and research all this.
 I also received a mail talking about soil is the grown to grow things on etc.

Well I found my self in physics science and all that
Well we are the soil that God wants to sow thing spiritual good things in to grow and be fruitful in all areas of our life he want us to be knowledgeable educated and well.
He cares so much about  us it hurt his heart when he sees us living beneath our potential but he is so merciful
this morning as i was thinking all about this and so -on I felt such a hug.
After I started to share some of this it felt like it was disappearing can't share every thing.

It's like having a husband or wife you can't share things you do in your bedroom. HELLO!!!

At The Edge of Miracles!

I am at the edge of miracles, we are all at the edge of miracles only if we can see, now I know what is to be, I have to move  to see, move out of my comfort zone today and reach to receive.

At the edge of miracles now when the children of Israel was possessing the promise land they had to fight. Yes submit to God. Yes, but after you have submitted to God, good, you think the enemy is going to sit back and let you go without a fight. his plan is to destroy to keep us out of the will and promise land he will fight you, sad to say if you don't know how to fight you will loose, and even if you know how to fight he can weary you out, by your family member you living with on the job and others things.

Although fighting against God Jehovah is a losing battle with one of His finger tip that is even too much to say, but you gone in. The enemy is not a competition for Jehovah Adonai. God Almighty He created everything and He can destroy everything!

I have seen and heard and know much to be convince otherwise that there is not  a God ruler of the universe Almighty and Sovereign  and is the only True and Living God.
I have also seen and heard too much to think that there is not a satan. This is not an "inner me enemy" this is real. Yes we have ourselves to deal with because our flesh really does hinder us for it is corrupt with this world true to all that but there is and dark force that wants to destroy mankind, he hates mankind.

Also am aware that our culture, the way we have been brought up and think concerning life, on money, poverty, health, wealth and God can hinder us. the way we look at other people culture there ethnicity we can be cruel to each other, we see it everyday in our communities and on the media.

We are at the edge of miracles and if we don't see our real enemy and realizes that he will even use you,  if you fail to realize, who you really fighting against to prevent you from occupying the promise land to stop you from breaking the real chains of bondage. Can we call all the situation by name and deal with them you can't heal and deliver what you don't know!

At the edge of miracles if you don't hold the blood of Jesus up against every demonic hindrance and delay of our miracles we will probably never see it or experience it.

So Am sending out Fire and thunder to confuse the camp of the enemy to bind up their kings in chains and fetter with the written word according to Psalms 149 and sing praise and how glorious you are Oh lord in the heavenlies. Exodus 22:18 Thou shall not suffer a witch to live. Lord you said we have to execute your written words. Lord enough is enough of bondage and chains for you sent your beloved son Jesus to set us free from the prince of this world. I declare am free.

I wet the two edge sword in the blood of Jesus I cut every chains break every cage every curse in the name of Jesus.I decree and declare it  is broken thank you Lord.  Jesus hanged on the tree, cursed is the man that hang on a tree Lord Jesus you took and bear it all every sickness i curse you to the root be annihilated by the blood of the lamb of God Jesus Christ Amen.

In the name of Jesus i cancel every retaliating forces demonic spirit I bind in in the name of Jesus I forbid you from manifesting Every strongholds I bind you  in Jesus name with chains and fetter with the word of God.
In the name of Jesus I loose every ministering angels to loose the chain around our hands and feet open doors that need to be open shut doors that need to be shut this is an open haven I declare it in Jesus name.

Your will to be done Lord Your will is so that we can Be free from oppression, sin and bondage's freedom and birthing of miracles in your name. For your glory this earth this world will see you high and lifted  up men will be drawn to you. The poor and naked will be fed and taken care of, the widow orphans battered and bruised will be taken care of.

Lord your words was that you came for the ones that need a physicians in other words the broken, Lord we do need you thank you for you outstretched arms your mercy and love and I know it is done in your Holy and precious name JESUS Amen!

Can you make a difference

I know there are a lot of poor people in this world, even if they were taught that being poor it makes you humble closer to God especially with the mis interpretation of the parable  "It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than a rich man."  So I am aware of that too, some of us are where we are because of lack of knowledge and because of lack of knowledge people perish.

How can you reach a people if you don't understand them, know them feel their pain. Have you been poor? Do you know how it feels to want  and not have enough. Have you ever been there? If you have thank God you are out now, so do you have the ability to reach back in and help teach them how to reach and achieve and maintain what they have, not in a selfish way, but not to loose their possessions, because of carelessness...

All I've ever wanted

All I have ever wanted was you.

Since I was a child, all I wanted was you

And the life I dreamed about that, I believed it

Was possible if you just believed and have hope never in

My wildest dream I think this would be.

Why me? Then I matured and said why not me.

To be full of joy and peace,

Strength and health and wealth ,

Wholeness in my spirit, soul, body and mind.

Woman

A woman is a flower that needs to be taken care of.
she is just as important as your trappings and things
God loves women just the same
He put the seed inside of her to destroy the head of the demons king

His intention for woman is to complement the man,
not to complain, nag and whine.
women are like fine wine that gets better as it ages
the taste buds sparks that cause  fire in the man eyes.

You are not beneath nor are you above him
but you are walking right beside him.
To navigate and encourage to build up and lift up
The touch of your hands will calm the waves and roar in his soul

Woman you are loved by God
You are one of his finest treasures so delicate and pure
your heart is free to soar.

It should have never happened

Bad things happen to good people. 

They say it happens all the time. 

Why is that so? 

Why do we allow these things to grow?

It should have never happen but it did, now it's time to let it go.

How can I let it go when it is painful so.

I want to see change.

I want to see people grow.

I tell you my pain not to get any gain,

but to make a life worth the change.

There is hope in sight for all to see,

I really  want you to see it through me,

I tell you my pain not to get any gain.

but to glorify Jesus throw all this rain 

and to know the sun will shine again.
I know...

It should have never happened but it did!

Am not blaming, but I am blaming you!

 Am not blaming anyone, but am blaming everyone, yes it was my choice, but am still blaming...

This is my arguement,
Okay I was miss perfect and a little arrogant, 

Okay, but I was living pure at least that's what I thought. Living pure it's not just your physical life but also your thoughts emotion everything that make you, you.
Well I have to say, that if you were living a life pleasing unto him, it would have never happened because I was looking at you, even though,

I watched your life and I watch mine I am keeping myself and you are not it affected mine.
Yet you are still on the usher team, worship team, singing and dancing in church and other things, you call me miss perfect because I choice to be pure, 

You call me arrogant because I confront you about yours,
Your life and how it's affecting mine, 

You finally sink your teeth in me, 

Got me me convince that to have a life of all I want I have to sell short on mine! 

Many nights I tossed and I turned, in my head I think this couldn't be right, 

Why do I have to compromise!
Even though you may say do what I say, not as I do, it still affected me.
I wonder now how many lives have you altered because of the life you let shine
The life that it's okay  for you to do wrong and get away,
while others pay the price for one more day everyday.

I heard the Lord say get on your knees, this is time to pray not to be talking late.
Even though you are working late.
I lend my ears to you, while I did you Poisoned  me,
through your words, you speak.
My hope got dimmer and dimmer as I stayed in the atmosphere of doom
pending doom was my portion, one chance I took to go out on a date,
rape was waiting for me,
all because of the life you let shine.

As christian our life is important we are watched daily by other and our fellow brothers and sisters and yes our life can affect others whether it be good or bad sad to say some of us life are causing more havoc in our church and community. 

We are supposed to live a life pure and holy and separated unto God but yet we still want to be and do as we please we are affecting our communities and country through the life we live so if you are going to cause an epidemic let it be a holy epidemic a righteous, God fearing life. Our life do affect other because yours affected mine!!!!

Chance

I used the word chance because it seems like all we are doing in life is taking a chance when it comes around the opposite sex both male and female. No one really cares any more everyone have there own secret agenda  I am with you just for sex and or money. 

I am only with you because it is convenient for me to be with you and you with me.

A chance because men now a days think it is okay to have more than one sexual partner and the society encourages  and also by media 

They make men look good their friends make them look good like "yeah dog your the man."Sad to say it is even coming over to the woman side more so, even though if a woman have more than one mate she is a whore, harlot, slut etc.

But the men they get away with that. Am not saying woman should get away. But we did not train our men to say no we did not train our men to be decent  and am not even that old for me to be saying "we"

You let them go and be all wild "oh men are hunters" okay. So it's okay for them to be uncaring, unruly, mass murderers, thieves, gangsters ,abusive etc.

It is lack of training and discipline why the men are the way they are.

The girls had to wash, cook and clean make the bed , do the knitting while they run wild and untrained boys grow up into untrained men.

We are living in a mans world, no matter how much women are approaching the business sectors political etc head on, we are still living in a mans world. 

It will always be the mans world, my point is that they are the head It was designed for them to rule but the head is corrupt  and or need some and or a lot of adjustment, not for the women to control or be a jezebel or deliaha but to help the man be the man that wares the countenance of his wife on his face. 

The perfect storm.

What I went through last year March 12-13th  2010. It should have never happened, but it did. I met him twice on the second time that is what happen raped, the circumstance that it happened on I questioned myself and I was torn by it, for all I did was trusted the opposite sex, I took his word and believe that everything would have been okay for me, especially with his job line that was police.  I was told I would have my own accommodation, when i reached it was not so!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I trusted a police man that is why I moved on that level of trust is not like I did not no or have any standard. I had and they were high, very high and not impossible high at least I know that now that those standards weren't impossible. I still believe that it can be achieve.

It bothers me because I hear people talk about purity and keeping yourself and when they are finished am still torn, what happen to those that did not keep themselves or was violated is all hope gone for them. How can we tie in healing, comfort and hope for both the pure the violated the beaten up ones, without leaving out one or the other.

It dawned on me no wonder the people that have had sexual relationships before and gave their life to God still have their heads hanging, when God said any man be in Christ is a new creature. People should not feel the guilt of past sins once they have truly repented because of your words after you have finished speaking. The only guilty ones should be those that are still committing their acts.

You may say it's self guilt you have not truly forgiven or gotten over your past hurts deeds etc. I have to say really now.....I don't think so

To be more honest The Lord said to me I am more pure than before, that is what i heard during my healing periods.

When I was physically a virgin I was arrogant I would tell everybody if that conversation arises. I was very proud to be that old and have my virginity, and i would hear the snares of other girls and women saying it was not true can't be so old and have it now a days that don't happen and oh that I think I am miss perfect.   

Even the old ones and i really mean old ones this eighty something years old woman told me I can't go back to God like that, and I need to loosen up, along with other things and still cuss me out because of my authenticity of being a Christian. Well now I know I was not fighting flesh but something else principalities and powers. 

We as humans have to be careful not to allow and or give our self up  to be used by satan to detour someone from going right to go wrong all because of jealousy, envy grudge  etc.

In my rules there is not suppose to be touching in terms of touching here touching there or every where. I advocate group  dating/socializing I always believed in group socializing with the opposite sex. 

And I was told that by church forks that i think am miss perfect, and I really tried to be for real i literally have dating rules write out, I still have them today, am not going to throw them away.

This eighty  yrs old plus woman was a church going woman she said she is a christian, she was around where i was working at the time and conversation strikes up and I do enjoy communicating my thoughts, opinions beliefs,  information, ideas etc and I always hear, old people have sound advice wisdom and I swallowed that advice. Well not anymore I weigh out them old people sayings. 

 

I don't know if arrogant can be a good thing when i say i was arrogant but in the sense i was really proud to be that old and have my virginity, but i was not arrogant in pointing out people faults i was proud really I was and I had a goal to let the whole world know that there are young ladies out there that can keep themselves.

 

You don't know this because I did not say it, after that night he said and before too that is why I broke it off i felt if some one can say those things they ain't real or don't have your best interest at heart. He said, he use to watch me before going to work and coming from work he called me miss perfect I think am miss perfect because I have my virginity, and no one has theirs but me. 

It's bothering me is this person human or have demonic influence. I can remember every detail or almost every detail even the most painful ones.

Now with everyone  and everything around me saying and telling me you are getting old you need to loosen up believers that are suppose to be the light are living two set of life and nothing is happening to them they getting away free as a bird. One time  I took the chance to go out, way out because I had to travel to get to where i was, so that is why I said way out. The second time we meet I was raped. The perfect storm.  

Everything every person in my life at that time contributed to the perfect storm. It was a set up!

I know about being tired

I love the Lord. I know he is alive and well I know without a shadow of a doubt that he is real. there is no way any one can convince me that he does not exist. I have passed that threshold. I also know that there is a devil too, he is out to kill, steal and destroy but Jesus He is to give life and life more abundantly Jhn10:10

For the past couple of days weeks, I've been just tired of this life, wanting to go home to the Lord and i ask him to seriously take me. there is so much too do and the work is getting literally harder because of the life we live as believers, the things we say and do and things we don't do, that we should do.

One of the things is to help our brothers and sisters, but no it seems like we say to ourselves if I help him or her they might get better than me or more popular than me. Caught up with fame and vanity and all is vanity. People need love.

Why you think they go to other groups occultism  groups because they receive help from them, they make them feel loved, accepted wanted and even though there are some extremeness out there that really do sacrifices etc, they feel accepted with whatever lies they have been told and even though they might no some truth, our love to each other is so evident  of the cruelty, the back biting etc,  that  they say out loud or internally I rather stay in with this clique of people. So if they killing and sacrificing people at least they straight forward with it. We do it after church on the phones where ever else.

When I read acts and how the church grew and multiplied was because they were together they cared  for everyone. They  made sure every person was taken care of.

Yes yes i know about choices but when you looking for more and you see what should be excellent is mere mediocre, they go for the easy and fast way out or should i say in. Their hope become diminished they start to believe a lie and accept it over the truth.

We in church and we only talking to certain set of people because they don't look or dress like you fancy and shimmery. Or they don't gossip or have the latest of what is going on.

You might say I wonder if she does pray if she has a prayer life honestly I think it could be so much better I do communicate with Him The Lord Jesus the Holy Spirit Jehovah God Father. He told me one time "the wicked is like a drop of water in a bucket not even worth a sacrifice," because of a  vision in a dream I saw. It can be scary you don't normally see things like that.....oy!

Prayer reveals good and evil things that is happening people and things I used to be scared but am not scared anymore I just got tired weary every time i write a blog here something I just wanted peace happiness life as normal but my life can't be the normal I want it so I got to accept it and I do really I do.

Another thing God always show you you first before he let you see anything or anyone,  He is not a hypocrite!!

Cyber world

You were created by man. Now am using it to do and publish good news that  if we don't fight and possess  and Kingdomised  this earth certainly the enemy will, God forbid.
So every cyber attack retaliation i bind you from manifesting and counter attacking i bind i apply the blood and send through the blood of Jesus through these cyber waves now in Jesus name. I loose angles that deals with technology to cut every wicked cord, agenda every attack to drive them away like chaffs to stretch out the sword of the Might God Jehovah through the internet cyber space that am linked I declare peace in Jesus name!!

Action must be taken

To survive action must be taken, no more sitting back no more wishful thinking, that it will all go away. Kerina for it is your life or theirs. They are fighting to the death. No mercy, their intentions is to to steal, kill and destroy.

So what are your intentions, to sit back and let it all slip away... so close to your miracle so close to you break through apply the blood of Jesus to break and stop every sabotaging spirit that comes to hinder you kerina!!! Send out missiles in the atmosphere wage war with your praise declare and decree fire upon the enemy camp, no more holding back give it all you've got all you've got. they are not stopping until you die, so it's you or them. Make up your mind now, you or them.

I say them for I will not die I will live. Live a life with complete wholeness. I cancel every untimely death in the name of Jesus. I apply the blood of Jesus in me on me all around me. I wet the sword of God in the blood of Jesus and cut every demonic activity by the root total destruction annihilation every curse dry up whither away in Jesus name.

In every battle or war they don't just go to attack the soldiers they go for the head the king (s) once the kings and generals have been killed or captured, detained you have siege of everything else. So every king demons principalities  powers rulers of darkness and  wickedness in high places the blood of Jesus Christ is against you I bind you i forbid you in the name of Jesus not to manifest yourself you are under the lock by the blood and the name of Jesus I decree you powerless in Jesus name!!

You are more afraid of me than I am of  you i see you and i know you this is not a hype this is the real deal this is not a notice this is war a declaration for total annihilation death sentence too you only in the name and the blood of Jesus....................Amen so let it be!!!!!!

Hardest things to face

Is to know that your family member (s) whether it be whole related or half related or maybe by law that they are working against you. To see you fail and fall. It gets even harder when you know who and exactly what they are doing. It's even so more harder when you know if they don't change their ways is death.
"for the wages of sin is death." If no repentance is taken.
It gets harder when you have to face the facts that this is so, it is real hard almost unbelievable even though you know these things happen. Identifying your enemies that is close to home or in your home or in your family etc, is indeed hard....Romans 16:17

My great grandfather

He celebrated his birthday for 90 years on the 16th of June, and when he finally went for his birth certificate his correct month was the  September...........OH MY He is going to be 95  on the 16th September.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRAND DAD!!

NOTHING

Well mother is back from New York and her trip is all that you hear about, the shopping malls, the long walks and the train rides. Oh yes and the tall buildings, more so the shopping malls and the train rides.
The train rides seemed to be of a joy ride than the real coney islands fun rides for her. I guess all she needed was the cotton candy and popcorn and corn dog stand on the train on in the subway stations.....
So mother what did you get me, "nothing" she said. "Well you need to go there for your self."  "Mother I've been there before." "Well why you did not tell me." "I 've been there in spirit." her reply, "oh I see." "Well am I was there for real in the flesh."
So what did you get me, "nothing."
More more metro trains, shopping malls and long distance walking like a marathon. Bags here, bags there, bags everywhere.
So mother with all those bags what did you get me 'NOTHING'

Reaching

Reaching is painful, especially one no one is reaching back at you.
Oh so it may seems. Optimism

Reaching and stretching strengthens you  everyday for the next day.
You can go a little further this time and another time.

Now am reaching and stretching for a purpose, a goal, something that is doable all because God said so...

Guess what

The wilderness season is over.....entering
delay decisions will only keep you back in it longer !!

Since I've been.

Since I have entered into the cyber world with writing on this blog and before just writing and saving and documenting PC problem hack and attack well they increase since I came to the blog. I have one of them i put there earlier in hidden agendas well am fine and everything IS!!

Have you ever thought of this?

Obedience with God is important. Delayed obedience is disobedience.
We are all clear on this.

Now we do what we are told and when we are told to do so, everything is good.
Now you go and ask the Lord save my wife/husband, heal my daughter/son, Lord don't let my house be taken away from me etc.
Nothing happens.

What do you think went wrong?
GOD or man.

An Idiot upset me!

A few moments ago an idiot upset. I did not like it. More like more like two hours yeah two hours ago I was not going to say anything here but i started to type on the blog so i think am flowing (hahaha)
You know it does not shock me....
Normally I let a lot of those thing slide and be like Can't be bothered with that.
Well am getting over a fever HELLO!!!

Dear mom,

I can't wait for you to come back from vacation. you left us three back home and we end up in the hospital. Please come home soon. I don't miss you, I just need you to be back home to your three "pickney"
Well I was the one that got the worst end and I really need you to come back home. fever muscle and joint pain blister gums, tongue and lips belly aches, head aches earaches and vomiting. I still don't miss you just want you to come back home. I know you are enjoying yourself, because you told me so, almost two hours on the phone while temperature was high. been to the hospital on  drips and got other things all three of us. I still don't miss you but come back home soon.


I Love you
your daughter

Whose world it is yours or his?

Recovering!

I heard and read you are suppose to "schedule your miracle because pain will schedule itself."
Well for the pass couple of days I have been along with my two sisters recovering from food poisoning. It was not an expired product but it was not right or good. This morning I thought I had to go to the hospital again but I prayed a little harder so-to-speak. The first visit there I did not stay in I did not wanted to stay in. However I started to question myself if I made the right choice. I am alive and GOD is GOOD!