He's been faithful

John 10:10

The devil takes, kills, death is involve, he destroys.

Jesus comes to give life, restore, rebuild, lift up, edify, encourage, enhance,  make you shine, He puts you upon a hill. He says you are the light of the world. Mansions and kingdoms all that is involve too, crowns  and jewels  mm mm mm.........wonderful He is wonderful!!

Hope you get the picture.

Happy New Years!!!

I will tell you my dream

I was cleaning some meat, nice tender lions and ribs they were perfect no fatty parts, membrane is cleaned off and all that, good meat.
After this person came and we are supposed  to be working together they took the meat after I have finished doing the work and went with it to do the easy part. "I will go and season it up". they said.

This person represented someone who always takes from me in real life.

Am not bashing anyone and stating facts.
By the way I already know this even before this dream.

Now the seasoning of the MEAT that is another part.
Raw meat VS flavoured artificial flavouring meat

INTERESTING WAY TO LOOK AT IT.........

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!

Increase or decrease

I have just awaken from a  dream, and I thought  about it and  I realize It is definitely true. It sounds funny and Outrageous, but true.

 I have learnt this quote along my journey it also made my decisions easier, also my to discernment. If you don't increase me, you are the devil!
This is not just a quote, it has foundation, you can build on it.

Wisdom is knowing good and evil.
Discerning is knowing the difference.

If am always adding to you, building you up, inspiring you and you are always withdrawing and not depositing and I'm not talking just about finances, but encouragement, words of wisdom etc, You are the devil.

Your future is the choices you make today, in your now.all what you did today the results the consequences or reward are your future.

Seed

Today is the 30th December, 2011.

It really was a year of change and transitioning for me, also battle however, I am a victor and so are you.
I am at peace I mentioned it early in the poison apple and other writing if you really read.

I want to talk about seed, sowing of seed. I made a pledge for a battle seed in Feb and then may I recieve the money, but I put it to something else that I thought was going to bring me more so that I can complete the whole thing without feeling anything.

That was a lost, but I learnt from it.

In October I sacrifice my bills and made that part complete and after, I receive peace although their was some things happening around me I was still at peace  although my heart-ached, my heart remained at peace.
Sowing that seed spoke to the battle of my heart, my mind my anxiety and everything else that was fighting, struggling all that.

I said that to say this, your seed speaks depths that you can not reach with your prayers alone.
If you don't want to feel anything when you sow, the seed will not be all that significant it is a seed it will grow but it will not do as much.
It would be like planting a seed and not watering or taking care of it.

I had a problem, if you are not comfortable sowing what you have or where you at, because it is a small seed you big seed would not impress God. It does not move Him! I learnt that too.

It's the ending of the year 2011. to be honest I don't know if I will be here as often, not because I don't have anything to say God always have something to say. In,"I've been cheating". explain all that.

Am still at Peace!!

Your choice today affects your tomorrow
What you do to day the results are your future
You kill today your future is in jail.
You bless today you future is in receiving your promise land.
You follow instructions today tomorrow births miracles.

Am at peace!!

2012 holds the result of what you did in 2011 definitely with bonuses whether negative or positive

Confessions

Those vintage cards, I have not yet given them away, okay am sure of one I will definitely give, but I mean I was BZ. I needed to sort them out and who will get what, but they are Christmas cards, Christmas is gone It's now time for entering the New Years celebration "Hello".

I'll give them  away next Christmas -_- seriously.

I don't feel bad though. Do you? lol

Merry Christmas Merry Christmas

Do you know what I know?

Everything starts within.
Start within yourself first and let it break out of you and unto others!!

I Like You Better Raw.

Christmas season

My experimental genes get more active during this time of year. I have track records.

There is a lot of Lol right now

I am having fun, it is really good to laugh it releases tension. Makes you free all over, Bloopers are there to have fun and learn from.
with the right spin I can really make something good from this new seasoning. LOL

My mother face is priceless right now

I am going to be a millinonaire

Turning chicken into fish what a business, new seasoning,
just a a pinch on you chicken you have fish.  (Jingle)                
I turned chicken into fish.

No more early morning catching,
Just a pinch on you dish will give you fish
Join the drift into the shift of a new dish chicken fish
I need a drink!!!

lololol
My mother face, she does not like!! Hahaa
I am a millionaire
new invention
Chicken fish first one to be published
I am in a zillionaire status I have a lot more
experiment that I would not say here

Experiments

Trying new things can be dangerous or is it me dangerous?
Okay, I was experimenting on creating new seasoning for my chicken, using different herbs rubs and blending them together.
I cooked it and the chicken tasted like fish. The taster is allergic to fish O_o
Had to stop.

I painted today, I mix paint and used paint, now my mother, "This sucks". Her words. LOL
Their eyes need to be adjusted last year they told me the same with the inside now everybody loves it. They sucks.

I really need a laboratory, to experiment things on before I bring them out.
My mother, "I don't like it"!

Some one present me  paint brushes, my sister said they gave me a gun......-_-

I get bored quickly.

The other painting I did today they like, by the way I used different paint to get that colour and they like it.
whoa I invented a colour today again.....lololol

Other than sapphire blue my favourite two colours are black and white.
A clean slate to start all over on
I believe am going to get some white paint for Christmas LOL
to undo...lololol

I know they aint going to buy black, scardy cats

Saving money

Making old look new!

A new lamp shade price is $75 dollars.  Instead of buying a new shade for the lamp, I dissembled the one I have, dust it and cleaned it with gentle cleaning agents. My sister drew some flowers  and vine with  Oil based crayons to make it vibrant.
Putting it back together I  used the same wrapping of course cleaned.
You can use other wrappings (along with the original) that you would find fruit and gifts baskets wrapped and  decorated with, blend the colours in proportion so they would compliment each other. Now my once old looking lamp became new by cleaning and changing the shade colour and added art work.

A project that  helped decorated the house caused us to work together and save money.
You can save money this way too, spend time with your family, having fun, by doing these small chores and making it adventurous in the house,  and creating cleaning habits and skills.

Be open minded with colours especially with children, colours are good even black.
Black is beautiful.
Mix colour is beautiful too.
It's  not what you don't have. It's what you have that matters most so make good use of it.
Don't focus on the haves nots, but see the potential in every grain.  

I just finish putting the lamp back together a few minutes ago am just sharing.
We are on the journey together.

why am upset

They mentioned about flash cards, use flash cards to help you learn, I got offended.....lol


Please if you need flash cards to help you learn, please use flash cards. ....

urg -_-

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Today is the 21st and I just thought of this am not upset still, but Learning for me has to be fun not boring.
Boring me to death however I may remember because an near death experience in learning, that is something to remember and excitingly hilarious...  I was in maths class and the teacher  pace and teaching technique sucked the life out of me, I literally felt it. Drained, almost collapsed, wait I did collapsed into sleep.

Learning should be fun and memorable.

Now am not saying in every area and everything it will be fun, fun in terms of being practical and hands on, but in other areas such as English,  and theory subjects try make it memorable.

What type of learner are you?

My sister and I did, "What type of learner are you"?
I was said to be a visual learner her result was tactile learner
I was mad.
Why?
She was like you only got 15% on tactile.
I believe that was over a technicality
I got
45% visual
40% for the other one I can't remember the name, I think it's reading analytical something

She go and say she is tactile and all that and I only get 15%, I was like, I like to do things with my hands while you rather work on a million small things, I rather work on three big things.

The technicality question,  "Would you rather fix you computer or have some one else fix it for you"? I normal fix my Pc but when I see it  is getting serious, I rather let someone come in, so I chose the option that said let someone else fix it I don't want to be without it for days............... strupes

Strips strips of paper always behind her cutting here, cutting there, cutting everyone paper and cloth  I have books around me and when am done i put them away don't leave them and the trail behind me........Oy
You only get 15% tactile, she turn to me and said they other day She don't like my hands because they always finding things to do getting in trouble, well that part is true mostly with paint and some other things not bad things, she use paint too eh.

I don't stay in my space with my paint.

How I got 45% visual  the question, Do you  rather pictures in  book, I chose that option she looked at me with a snare like am child. I chose that option because I don't need a book with words you could be speaking about something and while you speaking there is a movie inside my head, hello.

And I deliberately chose book with pictures and the other one, I wanted to see what was going to happen.I wanted to have two options but i could only choose one
And I chose.

Note to self

There is no fire place in the Caribbean.
I could be the first to build one. Thought

Note To You
Christmas time is not about the spending and making and showing off what you can afford or not afford, it's more than  the parties and new furniture, and how many gifts you can receive.

 I love Christmas time I do. The atmosphere is set for magical things to happen but we miss a lot of it because we get caught it with our wants and don't haves.

You can make what you have wonderful by cleaning it up, and shinning  it up.
Crystals and glasses you use a little of soap liquid a al little of bleach (clorox), wash and then  rinse in some water with a little of  vinegar, dry with linen towels, to prevent speck of lint and the crystal and glass will have a shine.

Dust and polish, polish and dust, I love Christmas time Ham and turkey on my plate, big enough for me to share. with forks from one end of the table in mine and mine in another across the room drinking and sipping of  wine and eggnogs I wonder who will be left behind. Boxing day comes your eyes are open, oh my I have to catch the jouvert  band
That is Christmastime in the Caribbean

Let me clear this up, I'm not a cleaning expert am telling you what works for me.
The walls use some soap and bleach and you scrub the not to remove the paint, but the dirt
I am  painter in my own rights, I paint for myself, at least where I can reach - _- where I can't reach The Lord send the help. Thank you Lord for that!! Amen Amen

You don't have to throw out you old furniture, if they are real hard wood and they have lost there colour you can sand it lightly. Use tape to cover up the knobs and areas that need to be covered up and as a family project you can varnish or paint it spending time together with the  family. That is some magic to hear laughter and fun.

If it is the fabricated wood you can do the same carefully though.

Christmas  is special, yes I know Jesus was not born on this day and all that. I am aware but the fact is; it has positive notions; we celebrated His  Birth, the gift, God The Father gave. With family friends and love ones and strangers as well; we eat, we laugh at the end of the year, hoping and planing solutions for a brighter and prosperous New Year.

Poetry

Christmas In the Caribbean

My Island

Every December painting of houses, 

New furniture and definitely new curtains, 

To show off with the neighbours.

Why would people go through such torture? 

Every ending of the year to impress neighbours and the rest

The smell of vanish and enamel paint in the air

Windows cleaning, House sweeping 

The pile on the garbage is higher than ever before

The furniture from January to November is not good anymore

So into the store; to hire for more.

The garbage men quarrel and snare with grunts from here to Timbuktu there

Every pick-up time is furniture, old and new 

They say,"Didn’t you get this last year"?

Lights and tress as bright as can be

Designs upon designs outdoing each other 

Makes no sense, I have to wonder.

Christmastime in the Caribbean

Spending and more spending 

Just because it’s all brand new

And for trucks to stop at their doors 

January morning, they all singing money blues

No money to buy or pay for their necessities of life 

They all spend it off for one day, just for themselves 

All for elaborate fun

Is this really Christmas at all?

I rather to be in the arms of my beloved ones 
Cuddled near the fire place 

Reading stories of old and new places.

Yes the story of my beloved Saviour 
His birth and the joy He brought
Bring peace to my heart.

Christmas for me is also about the cooking, 
That should be in abundance.

Not for myself but to bring each other together 

Food is magical on a table, 
It makes people talk and laughter

No one is greedy at the table

Bringing joy to others around 

Sharing of some  fun and what I have
Is what I love at Christmastime.

Right now I am full of marshmallow 

And it isn’t Christmas day as yet.

Dust and polish, polish and dust, I love Christmas time 
Ham and turkey on my plate, 
big enough for me to share.

With forks from one end of the table in mine  

Mine in another across the room

Drinking and sipping of wine and eggnogs 

I wonder who will be left behind.

Boxing day come, your eyes are open,

Oh my I have to catch the jouvert band

That is Christmastime in the Caribbean

Christmas Time

Why is it to depressing for so many people, I believe it's because people focus on what they don't have and when they see others around them have, they get all depressed sulky and sad.
Why watch what others have when you can enjoy what you have in your hand right now, someone else, somewhere else, may not have what you have and would be grateful for having the little that you've got. Be thankful and mindful that you have it better than some one else. Once there is life there is hope.

I have written a poetry piece for my other page but I have not placed it there as yet, I held unto it for here I believe. I will post it in just a few. It is, "Christmas in the Caribbean My Island"

Jesus is the reason for the season Not the man in the red suit

santa claus and the snow man is fun and entertaining, but I have not seen a manger or a heard of the manger the virgin birth and Joseph and Mary and Jesus Christ. Wow

Where are the wise men, the shepherds.

The glorious angel with the message of  The King birth.

The reason for the season is king Jesus.

What's going on here?

Too much santa claus hats.

Where are the swaddling clothes? 

snow man in the Caribbean  santa claus  with flying rain dears

The virgin birth, Savoir of the world I rather believe!

Not the man in the red suit.
The only red I can depend is the blood of Jesus Christ.

Jesus is the reason for the season.

My experience this morning

Was my first it sucked and  I got squashed. I bought exactly what I wanted and left. Disciplined

No ants on the counter

Left some food for shiloah on he counter and I was just in the kitchen. I saw one ant and then it was gone, the place is so cold they can't even come out.
Went back out to check it might have been a scouting ant, nothing is near nor far in sight.
It is cold out! Thye probably say let shiloah have that one, not tonight, ahh its morning.

Why I am up this time

I am up forty five minutes too early because, I have to go to the stupid store, to buy stupid paint, for the stupid wall.
I am grumpy because for the whole week I have been in the garden removing and replanting and yesterday afternoon I went up a notch with some bigger plants rather trees.
I was so tired when I was done I took a shower, put some socks on my feet and went to bed because the stupid store have early morning discount and it's going to be a huge crowd and yes I do need the stupid paint, I have to be up I can barley walk on my feet they hurt.
The weather has been to strange over the past weeks  I got fed up I told it to stop acting strange, it did it shine all day yesterday, but still very cold, I can do with a fireplace right about now.

Internet is it good

I saw something this morning am suppose to be asleep and at rest with everything and I am, but what I saw was a picture of  figures and it got to me.

My mind started thinking and creating and I started to cry then I was distracted.
I am happy I was, I got to move away from the internet and  although I had already started to write my feelings
I am still at peace but that picture almost made me cry.

Jealousy I and my Father we are one He is a jealous God

I know am suppose to be strong

When I see these things, I feel sick and I can't help, but to break out in tears.
I love you , I hate you, I love you even more.
My hearts sinks when I see you not near
I want to be normal, is this part of it.
Jealously rears
I try to hide it
But  it comes out on those unexpected days
When you see things, that shouldn't be there
I wonder if this is for real.

Painting

I have been painting ,using intriguing colours. during my time of silence from here and I still have to finish up some more.
I love painting but the big jobs do wear me out, especially  the high places that I can't reach.
I like painting on canvas too,  not portraits but my feelings and things.Some faces and other things would be inside but they may not look normal as life.
It's really Christmas time here the smell of paint is in the air
I am rhyming because I just finish apiece for my other, the other thing am so secret about.
Love you muah

If you love me feed my sheep

Why did Jesus asked Peter if he loved him.; why He did not asked peter do you honour me; would you follow me; would you die for me etc?

Why He asked do you love me?
Then Jesus said If you do, (well peter answered yes) feed my sheep, shepherd my sheep.
John21:15

Do you Love me?
Love what is so special about the character of love and everyone wants to be loved.

The world says love me first then I love you back. Scratch my back and I scratch yours. You have to do first then it will do back. But God He gave us first. It's time to give back with love and gratitude.
God loved us first and He still does.

Well I love you, very much.
I tried to dumped you and I did but you still on my mind.

FYI

You may say, why I said what I said about cheatin  and another blog site. I am being treated better getting paid or should I say incentives. This site, I don't get anything, I did the adsense  etc, and they cancel it in just a few days  after I signed up for it, and said something about something (increase or decrease of there advertisers products something like that) I tried to figure out why, been going through their procedures and it's hopeless for real.

That is like months ago now okay!!! ( about the ad senses)

I did not do this for money am not getting any and that was not my purpose  I did not even know they did that. It was after a few blurred out, suppressed feelings, I went through the site more properly, I saw and I tried it and it did not worked.
Where am at  now, I will be getting paid for my writings, more like incentives.

I believe everything happens for a reason. Though I spilled some of my gouts out here, personal deep stuff, I have no regrets. I hope and pray and I know you will definitely see forgiveness and not pain yes it was painful but forgiveness and life was birthed and other wonderful things.

The reason for the season

Jesus is the reason for the season.

The lights represents the star the magies/wise men followed to find Him, Our Lord and Savour the presents we give, represent the gifts they presented  to Our lord Jesus and Of course our biggest gift came from Father God Jehovah His Son
The tree represent the cross He was hanged on to take away our sins and sickness everything that would defile us.

Hanging on that cross was significant in terms it gave us back life, in God, restoration in every area, for all  defilement is nailed to the cross.
Amen and Amen

The real situation

Lack of communication does this too you, what if this was real, between  a man and a woman  I mean,
because you wont open up and speak you will get dumped.

Did I just dump you

Was that too harsh, I watched monster in law and the ending part where the mother and daughter in law to be were fighting, she  the daughter,  slapped her the mother and said sorry  the mother-in-law said, "get some back bone  don't slap and say sorry". Really now

So I have back bone, I know it's Christmas they say it is the most depressing time of the year, wow and you just got dumped wow and wow.

Excuse me for a minute LOLOLOL

I've been cheatin

I know it sounds bad, but it's all good.

He respond back to me, he talks to me and listens to me while you don't. He give me insight and comments, direction, he inspires and excites me. I will tell you his last name. It is anotherblogsite, yes anotherblogsite....

I have learnt that it is good to keep people and things that keep you inspired near, you should too.
I guess I was not inspiring you enough, well I've met some inspiration.

We can still be friends I will come and visit you now and again
Is that too hard; am sorry it was hard for me to be here too, but I let go and let you know and you still did not even budge and give me a hug.

The Topic is just to catch your attention.

However I do have to put something here for you to read it is important so we all don't start 2012 crappy. and it's basically the same things maybe just in different wording
I will make it short and simple you can not be all so disorganised lack of discipline all your life and expect change and good fortune pull up  your socks don't focus too much on the destination it will weary you out, enjoy your journey  that is why am at peace now.

Bonnie ray song, "I can't make you love me if you don't", am not even going to try!!!

I still love you just found some inspiration
I will eventually tell you his first name
and link you guys together have a cup of coffee or tea someday
and we all will be friends

One of the men of God I  I had a vision  or dream about one of his quotes
"Love does not die it is Killed" serious

Jesus did not die from old age He was killed murdered crucified...all that
But He is alive and well
Hey this is His season Christ Mass well I stand corrected everyday is His season

But Gee Whiz it's Christmas time

You are not going to find it in my name I think -_- LOL

Hello There

Now this is one of my favorite

It's the picture

The picture is breath taking

the song is nice too I like sinatra 

over  a couple of new artist my time

Toy dog

My mom said shiloah is a toy dog. He was barking one evening, I suppose at something or someone mommy got up out of the blues, let me go see what this toy dog barking at.

The vet said that shiloah was and is the pup that's born with the defect as in all litters have, and he is retarded  and emotional.
The vet diagnosis of my  shiloah hmm -_-

The poison apple

Looking at snow white, and sleeping beauty and all those princesses, that fell a sleep or trapped in a tower, we may say, they where put there by evil mother in-laws etc. I decided how ever to look at it in this way. Before they were trapped or put in a deep sleep, they were up and about in their flesh, but after being trapped I see it as this. They were in their spirit, building it not so curious and naive, not merely acting on emotion and power but thinking things through thoroughly. No more fleshly deeds but working on the spirit, building the spirit.

Snow white was resting and relaxing into her promise although her flesh may not have known how and when her prince was going to show up. Destiny was taking place for her prince to show up on the scene. Eating the apple put her in the position to not mess up with her flesh. Rather build her spirit to be ready for her prince.
So eating th e apple was the opening of the door for her prince to show up.

I wanted to put this up since the 17th last month but I think it now. I had it here all day now I feel it's time to release.

I am sad because, what you see you want and can't get, snow and fire places, mistletoe  heehee
This is indeed serious
I am good really I am
I like the present part too

I know why

I am so excited around this time I was conceive in this month...heehee it's just a thought that pop in my head just now...wow, for real what if that is the reason why hmmm interesting, so why am I sad sometimes then, I really love  the pictures I see on the cards the snow and fire places and the decorations

Christmas season is here again

I found some Christmas cards, they weren't lost, I've been going through them every year and I seemed to not be able to give them away, but collecting them, and they all have things in common on them.

Cabins with fire places, trees in the background, farm houses, small villages and kids outside sleighing and playing in the snow. I am going to give the mall away, this year, no more hoarding them, okay I will keep one of my favourite. I have more than one favourite, that is a problem -_-

I was just looking for some vintage cards on the internet, but it's not the same, holding them in your hands feel so much better.

Here is a taste of what I like and why Christmas for me can be sad sometimes and happy. But am going to be good. I hope kathleen is hanging in there, she is is near to some of those things, the snow and fire places etc. We don't need fire places down here we're hot all year round. The smell of pine cones in the air, I better go buy some pine air-freshner.............lol

Isn't it dreamy, I told you so!!

Why I decided to not be here for a while

It's all about discipline.
I have been in  a place where I realize that we as human don't like and appreciate discipline we rather do our own thing, whenever and wherever.
When we get in an organization and there are rules and regulation we then say these people are trying to control and manipulate, don't get me wrong, but there are some people that do control and manipulate people and you see it almost everyday  if  not everyday, even in commercial.

I am not on commercials and media though.

We have to learn and build discipline for our own selves and not wait for some to say well this is where and when to go  and what to do and what you can't do. Have restrictions and limits on your self in terms of where to go and when and what time you will spend etc. I am not talking about strapping down your self from living life, but create boundaries in a good way.

Become committed  to something someone, when you are you will realize that you are more free than being not committed. Look at it this way singleness and marriage; if you are single how free can you be; in a marriage how free can you be?

In singleness I am bond to can not do this or that because am not free to do these things, it not right. But now am committed to a marriage and can do things a that I would not and should not be doing in singleness so who is more free being committed or being single.

Some will say single, who did not get the picture am painting, being single and doing those things get you in trouble, even if you say you have one man or woman, you are committed to that ONE man or woman, but being frivolous with everyone and anyone you are not free at all, you have to hide and duck etc.

Committed or having commitment is more free than being not committed.
Discipline keeps you in tact

Gee whiz It's Christmas

Hello There; 

Merry Christmas How it's Been?

 It's so good to talk to you again, It's been a long, long time. 

I can't explain why you cross my mind. I guest it's to wish you a Merry Christmas

By the way It does not snow in the Caribbean.

I am wishing you a Merry Christmas