The two is one

I know God is Speaking to us  since Sunday I have this to show you but because of the little nothing with the internet I am just getting to put it here.

This is in my yard, signs and wonders..........mmmmmm

THIS IS ONE BANANA STALK, THAT IS ONE ROOT, BUT TWO STALKS IN ONE.

SOME OF YOU CALL THEM TREE BUT REALLY THEY ARE NOT TREES.

Need to get a better shot of the root I am taking it with my laptop. 

Just got back my internet

The wires were bad how all of a sudden my wires got bad....... hmm
logical explanation...hmmm

Deliverance is always a subject that the enemy fight against to publish or do.

I rather use my Holy senses.

The Words 'Fire Lake' On Prescription

 This dream came after she died- please note that

This is a dream I had that my grandmother was on her bed, in the room we both shared. Well I came into the room and she was moaning or groaning and I am asking her, what’s wrong with you? Do you want water? She said, “It’s in her prescription get the prescription paper” and you will see what it says”.

The idea of me getting the paper was to give her, or go to the drug store to get her medication,  and do as instructed, so she could feel better.

So am looking for the prescription paper, it fell out of the roof or sky, it was folded she normally has her stuff fold and tucked away.

She was a pack rat, and neat they had the neat part in the eulogy always cleaning and decorating, turning around, fixing this, or that, dragging me too, to do the same.

I enjoy decorating and setting out furniture placing them in the right places for the space.

That was not strange, having the prescription paper folded, the falling out the roof thing was strange. 


I was like huh in the dream, I opened it and I read it, and said to her what it says. “Fire lake”. I said, “What the heck is Fire Lake”. 


In the dream I begin to get scared because in my dream I remembered that she is already dead and I woke up.

I went to pray Lord cleanse me, clean my spirit, my mind, soul, body everything.
I anointed myself.  Lord let me hear only what you want me to, see only what you want me to see. 
Sever between me and the spirit world I started to bind generational curses and all that.
 I started to cry lord what is wrong with me. I was scared.

At her funeral they had me do the eulogy they say I speak well and all that.

By the way I have a small tie tongue accent thing going on with a mellow tone of voice.

Anyway I did it, I was crying because the things they had about this woman is not what I know.

The fire lake dream was last year or 2010; the vision was on the same day, morning she died 2009.

 It was not pleasant and you should know by now I like to ask questions and whys.

So I wondered where she went and I had an idea and a knowing because of that vision, but anyway I kept my peace. I told my mother and sisters

When the family came I offered to do a prayer, that prayer is why they had me do the eulogy.

Back to the eulogy scene I was crying and these people thought I was crying because she is dead all that other drama.

I was crying because I was reading crap, I spent my whole life with this woman and what they wrote isn’t what I know and my vision was in front of me.

At  the end of the funeral  service, and burial ceremony, we all got together to eat.
They had me pray again, “someone pray they say”. “call kerina.” I am like, “lord what do they want me to say”. “I know where she is”. And then I said, “I think I know where she is”. And am like,  “how am going to do this.” 

In my head, “Oh my god”. Out of my mouth, “to be absent from the body is to be present with the lord”. 
Then a smart sentence came out, “where she is at she would want us to be happy live life and do right serve the lord”.  And some other things...............They said, "amen".

I know she had some funny bones in her, she was a good entertainer with jokes and food, she could cook, she really knew how to serve people. she was a giver, but who she wanted to give to, and who she thought deserves it.

What I miss is when we both were on good terms the old stories she use to tell and there was some funny ones. I miss when she wanted me to lie down in the bed with her just for company sake.

She would call everyone else to do something or get something for her and am right there, they would make noise like, “kerina is right their why can’t you send her.” She was like “No she lying down, she needs rest”.

Looking at this I just saw something or should I say I understand why now. I use to fight back and say why can’t you send me, then you say I don’t do anything for you.

I use to stop them from doing it sometimes and go and do what she wanted, she was never happy about that part and I really tried to please her. 


When I was not doing what really pleased her.

 My God!

I missed understood what she wanted from me, just my presence.

You know because of this I was stained as the one not wanting to do anything but all she wanted was me to stay right there, and I just realized why.

We are not fighting against flesh and blood but against principalities powers and rulers of darkness and spiritual wickedness in high places; but when light hits darkness it has to flee, even if it is for a moment.

She wanted that from me, there were times when we would read the bible together and try to interpret it, she would say what she thinks it means and I do the same.

She said am short like a base ball bat. She said my eyes are small and twinkly, when I laugh they closed.

When I sleep she makes fun of me, and  say I roll up like a ball, she use to peep over on me, I asked her one time do I snore she said, “No, but you have a funny noise like a mouse you squeak sometimes”. Huh....lol

She made fun of me that when I am calling the word grandmother it comes out grammduh, so they started to say grammduh too.

She was my grandmother in spite of, but fire lake..........hmmm serious!

Souls where are they going after this life?


We as Christian need to show the world that we are believers, sons and daughters of the Most High God.

He cares for the souls of men, their hearts and everything he cares about even your little worries he say don worry about a thing.

From our famous Bob Marley;

He woke up one morning and smiled at the rising sun.....the sun probably said, “Hello bob”.

The man saw three little birds singing melodies pure and true...... not chirping mind you.

 I noticed he said three little birds were at his door steps.

Who is at the door and knocking?

They were singing sweet songs of melodies pure and true, “this is my message to you whoowhooo  don’t worry about a thing every little thing is going to be alright”.

My God what an anointing!

We know about the donkey  talking, but we miss the three little birds singing.............Jesus have mercy!

I am waiting for shiloah to speak, sing and dance?........lol

Three little birds singing........... Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I am thinking.

I am that I am

Jesus Christ came to save and rescue and rebuild and restore and to give everlasting life. That is why He died to restore mankind.

John 3:16 for God so love the world He gave his only begotten son who ever believes in him will not perish but will have everlasting life.

John 3:14 He did not send His son into the world to condemn it but through him that the world be saved.

Sometimes we don’t need to say anything, but just let our light shine, they can see trust me they can see, whether you are true or not even the critiques know when you are true and those critiques that may not know still, it is because their eyes are covered with scales and as soon as those scales fall off they will see.

So let our lives shine before man so they can glorify God Our Father In heaven and on earth and that Lives within us.

In respect of black history month I suppose I can honour this with it.

We have Bob Marley I never met him. I am young.

When I listen to his music I feel his pain and, being misunderstand I here screams of when are you going to get it. I feel joy too.

He has a song that says when he (I) listen to music he feels no pain. What was the pain?

I have not listened to all and what I have listen too I believe and can use my fingers and toes and still have room for more.

The words make you think, what was really inside of this man that gave him the drive?

You feel the passion, frustration of the prejudice and the racial and other barriers and boundaries man created.

My grandmother she represents the conditions of man heart with God, is it right or wrong which side you want to be on, or you just want to be stuck.

We are the ones to show our lives  true lives like a book to be read so they can see Jesus in man.

It is the Holy Spirit that draws man heart to God, through us speaking and living and writings too.

Before it is too late lets be our brothers keeper and watch out & be kind love one another spread the gospel not just in words but in your life

I only believe in one race that is the human race every one of us had some sort of prejudice done towards us or a family member.

My skin is Browne, my great grandmother skin is white, my grandmother skin is what we call coloured, mix, light skin, maltose and my great  grandfather is really dark, a black man.

Our tongues although we don’t speak it; from both side we get Dutch, French Spanish, Africans tongues and English I speak English... hello

We are all one!

We are all connected to each other.

To be logical and practical there are boundaries, and issues still.

I am looking at myself not as a black woman or mix woman.

I am Woman!

I don't know if you notice yet

My life is not my own  to him I belong I gave my self away so He can use me  my life is not my own to him I belong I gave my life away so you can read it

My life is not my own  to Him I belong I gave my self away even for you to judge  and critique  it

My life is not my own  to Him it belongs I give my self away.

 He gave me his peace in his presence there is fullness of joy psalms 16:11

My path is clear

I am going to finish work in a few minutes and off to home.

Warfare

How can we go to war with untrained soldiers?

Chiefs, generals, commanders, sergeants, lieutenants and all the rest

You are to teach, equip, train fully, not half way, the soldiers, with the holding power you have from the head Jesus Christ. Training them and they becoming more advanced than you, does not make you less of the commander.  

Don’t be afraid or intimidated. Jesus said, “greater works shall we do”!

When you are gone who is going to replace you?

Who is going to run with the vision?

Who do you have set assured from above that will be the one to run continue with the vision?

Acts 1:24 in prayer it shall be revealed who should be with you, have your heart.

The chosen one to walk or run with you, help you carry the load. To be honest the load should not be so heavy if you train correctly not in negative fear but reverence, respect and honour.

The hand cannot be the foot, the foot cannot be the mouth, and too much of this is going on. None is better than the other all is important:

It is important to see.

It is import to hear.

It is important to speak. 

Shoot arrow and pull down and build up.

 Walk to and or run away or charge too.

Even the other seemingly not significant body parts are important, the exhaust pipes to let go of waste, pores are there to release perspiration to cool down the body when overheated. Hello somebody.

Whatever body part you are find you place, your stream, your purpose, your assignment, your calling.

One body!!

Different functions.

Oneness!

It is written he is coming back for a spotless blemish free bride!!

Still on warfare.

When someone is leaving a church, too much drama does be going on tying up atmosphere and nonsense like that.

I agree some people leave church rude and bad.

I cannot say we are not going to get offended, but we have to learn how to deal with offence which is undigested revelation.

Too much gossiping

Too much slander

No time fighting against the real enemy just each other, still on war fare.

I went to a seminar and I enjoyed it. However, at the end, the transport I was in, some passengers, they started talking and they got me upset. (That was last year though) well I did not have much time to talk because I had almost reached my destination.

You know what you guys say about leaving churches.

I said to this person, “you should not say that the church is not feeding you anything, they are not doing anything that is not good stewardship, just because you moved on or out grew in terms of your season expire, things was not working for you,  does not make that church bad you should not say it like that”. “You out grew fine, move on”.

In the tone and gesture he was stating it. A lot of people are doing this, and it is wrong.

In that degree he out grew, he is correct his season changed, okay. In the tone and gesture he had he was wrong and out of place for he is also giving others preconceive ideas of an experience, they should not be getting in that atmosphere.

What I have observe with churches and I have to say Pentecostals churches is that it is okay for someone to leave  their church and attend anotherthere but it is not okay for someone to leave and attend another!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you do you have wrong motive it is not your time you, you just want you own way or you just could not wait or you wanted promotion and did not get it all this devilish drama.

The Catholics and Baptist and Methodist can come over but when it comes to Pentecostal going it is something hmmmm!!

I also have to say yes, the food you were receiving spiritual is not enough, suitable and sufficient for you, so what happens, you out grew, you mind and understand has enlarged.  Just Move on! In the time God tells you too.

I agree and I have seen some people move because they cannot get their own way, do what they want, when they want, I agree some people move badly. My grandmother always say when bad people dies they die badly a lot of noise and racket and that is the way some believers leave church and enter into another church with that same badness.

I also have to say some leave good and quietly but other foolishness wants to create scene....Nonsense!! I am still on warfare.

Although I understand why we may feel that way, but we have to control ourselves.

Do you know before Jesus comes back somehow, some way, we as the body of Christ has to finally unite in one place? Where is that place?

Guess where, in the mind we have to finally unite in the mind and realise we are one.

He is not coming back for a hand nor a foot or an eye or a mouth. We are going to get it! I decree it and declare it in Jesus name amen!

I know about Jerusalem am not contradicting myself, He is come back for a bride His bride.

HE IS COMING BACK FOR ONE WHOLE BODY!! ONENESS!!!!!!!!!!

I also have to say this, this is where those that are leading the flock, in command need to know this,  to teach to the flock, yes there is coming one government one religion that is anti- christ.

Let’s think together here and work it out; starting like this; everything that the enemy does is counterfeit, imitation of what belongs to God, the church, us the believers in Jesus Christ.

We are afraid of the deep and satan takes the knowledge and twists it, I can mention some other things but I am not exalting the enemy.

The body Of Christ need to arise, wake up souls need to be meet Jesus Christ.

There is coming one religion, world order drama. The enemy is running with it first because we are afraid to say denominations need to come together, to be more effectively. Bring our different blends together believers of Christ Jesus.

Share the truth of Jesus Christ.  Father, Son and Holy Ghost/Spirit. Jesus is the only way, different paths-represents trails, but one road.

The straight and narrow road!

Do you think when Jesus comes it going to His religion, them religion and those religion?

How are we going to come together?

It is when we have oneness with Jesus Christ believers, born of a virgin, died on a cross and rose on the third day and ascended to heaven interceding for us.

Where the oneness starts? In our mind

Be ye transform by the renewing of your mind Romans 12:2

Everything out there that the enemy has, it is a carbon copy, it’s not the original source, he took it and run with it first make the believers feel that only he has that sort of power. What are you mad!!

It is written, “The children of darkness wiser than the children of light.”

This was not written for it to be so, it is a warning, instruction so that it would not be so........Interpretation.

Example:

Electronics do not use in water, Pharmaceutical products keep out of reach of children, take one  tablet twice daily. 
Individual are shocked when they mix water and there electronic such as there phones or touching electric wire with wet hands.
Over doze of medication.
Children are able to reach things they should not because whether it was by and incident or carelessness they die untimely deaths.

 

 You are afraid to go so deep and those that are you trying to kill them!

This too need to be taught in churches, Pastors, teachers, minister need to understand it is a growing body. You can actually go up another grade, level notch in God. It’s not just about increasing our pockets books and lands and houses, vineyard we did not build, we will reap or have increase, but also God knowledge.

We are a living and growing and ever increasing body, of the knowledge revelation and power of The Almighty God

When you leave a church please I beg of you don’t talk bad about the church that it’s not feeding or giving you the right food. You were eating before weren't you? 


If you out grew a place or have to take a leave notify and take your leave. Move on and let go.

If you are talking bad, it’s because you leave badly.

If the church is talking bad about those that leaving is because they too are bad.

This is another thing that is not taught in the church how could you be so foolish to think that whoever comes with you will stay all the rest of their lives, some people will have to go. How can you get upset by that?


Some answer and say if you leave you were never friends. Nonsense!
Some friends are expirational and some are not, Know the difference.
Meaning, some are only there for a season. Some are for life time

Another thing it not just those who leaving talking bad is those who staying talking bad about those that are leaving too it’s on both end My God none better than none...what it is written. Yes it is

Nevertheless, for those who really read and understand you should know your are not to be like that, if you are it tells me you read, but remain blind.

“Some say it just a part of it, you got to fulfil the book.” Bob Marley

The people not talking to those that leave or leaving gesture and grunts and eyes are made.

Is this really the body of Christ His bride?

The Shu-shu ing NONSENSE!!

I am still on warfare; fighting against your own self while the enemy sitting back and laughing. When we should be sending missiles in his camp, taking back lands and our health and monies and loves ones, he has stolen; rather we have given them to him.


In the name of Jesus I send out and launched out missiles and grenade and some atom bombs  and confusion in the enemy  camp and let them eat up on their own self, with you fire and lightening as you stretch forth you mighty hands in Jesus name,  every path clear, every wrong door closed and right door open.  Wrong people disconnected and right people connected in Jesus name amen. I pull in all my loves ones, my harvest that I missed, I speak life back into you,  I speak life  back into my seeds that I have sown and did not reap, germinate and bring forth in Jesus name. Resurrection power to every dead dreams come back alive, manifest in you due time I decree and declare it, manifest in your due time.

Your season, your due time is now! Manifest

You are healed and delivered set free from oppression depression frustration walk into it in Jesus name!

Deliverance Manifest!

In 2005 I was in church and we had a prayer meeting and the person leading gave us instructions those instructions where to apply the anointing oil on our hands and eyes feet  etc, so when can see prophetically  and the rest I was a bit hesitant  because I already know me, what  happens, the Lord allows me to see.  I swallowed my breath and I did it. This is just a part or the reason why the lord allowed me to see this, everything else was okay I suppose He only showed me this because this is what was said in this part. “We pull down strong holds and bind them in Jesus name”. That was it.

Now they were praying other things too but this part was just that. Don’t get the wrong idea now!

Don’t say what I did not say or if you do not understand shut-up!

Take a seat, ask questions lord help me to understand Holy Spirit help me to understand.

Strong holds was coming down, but they were standing up  bind looking and waiting for the next instruction well that night I had an opportunity to say this that strong hold did come down but we need to assign them to where they need to go they were just standing up, well I just got stared at.


Where should we assign these things? Into the see it is written speak to the mountain and cast it into the sea.

I am still in warfare just like how we pray and we need to be specific, in warfare we need to be specific.

Warfare; you can have many gifts and if you don’t have love you have nothing

I really love the prodigal son His father arms remained open for the return of his son, always looking out, identifying true fathers.

Jehovah God will never leave you nor forsake you!!

He is indeed Our Great heavenly, loving, compassionate FATHER,

His mercies are new every morning!!

Love is Life of victory everyday it in itself is the greatest weapon of War

Love your enemies ~~~~~~~I don’t mean satan

There is a time and place for this weapon of war called love you cannot be hugging the enemy on the battle field. Hello!

On your job when they are not nice love etc where ever you are in that sense.

That too is a battle filed

In war love, yes, for you fellow soldiers  yes and yes compassion no one get left behind, you know what I mean. I have your back you have mine.

We should and need to be our brother’s keeper! In warfare too

I woke up this morning well all last night and earlier this morning I was still typing but i went to sleep I wanted to sleep, well did the Holy Spirit stop no Yes in a dream He showed me the power of worship in warfare so I can remember to put it here.

Your praise and worship is a weapon to confuse the enemy and disarm the plans of the enemy. Worship shakes things into order

It’s 10:53 am 28^th February,2012. Caribbean time and I just made a call to my internet service provider, my modem is offline. How did it get offline? It may not be coming back until tomorrow because they have to fit it in with the technician schedule, but will see if we can do that today.

 Well whether sooner or later this will be published can’t stop it this I know make it sure that it needs to be out there.

Then I am reminded of Moses, being trained up with the Egyptians, living like an Egyptians, walking like an Egyptians, speaking like an Egyptians, what the Israelites thought was bad and they ridiculed his parents for that, as they thought they were standing with the enemy. Moses was in training ground to have leadership qualities. 

Egypt became an oppression camp and depression camp because they over stayed they did not leave, I am sure there was a doorway for them to leave but they did not take it they felt things was good in Egypt.

Know when you season is up in a place this is warfare strategy too.

Why you think many individual losing the battle? Those demons knows who you are, they connect with generational and familiar spirits. They know more about you than you know about yourself, in the sense of power and authority. Not so much on your destiny path.

There is greatness in every one of us, they don’t know how great nor do they have an idea how it will turn out but they do not assume you will not turn out, they fight with you as great as they think you are or could be. There is something about each of us we carry it and they look at it.

Is it our light or energy, our spirit man? I am reminded that we are the light of the world, is this beacon, a light we carry and how bright or dull that lights glows they know?

That on us humans and they can pick that up but still don’t know all the potential.

It is still by our choice, so they wear out the saints with unnecessary distraction.

So they come and try to distract and discourage you so that you will not press forward.

Why did Moses part came up, because you so quick to judge and assume what is wrong and what is right.

Know this for sure, you do not know what you have until it is gone.

What is a human spirit this contains the will of man to choose life or death. I have read that we do not have authority of human spirits, only God do. So when we are dealing with them we have to say like this, Father please remove or quiet every disobedient human spirit in Jesus name.

However I am now in a position to disbelieve this because there are people that are manipulated, mummified into other things so what do you call that?

Something is controlling them they are doing things they don’t want or don’t even remember, so what do you call that?

As I said it is what I read.

 We have authority to thread upon scorpions and demons etc.

To execute written judgements. Psalms 149:1-10

 Every witch and warlock must die it is written, Exodus 22:18

Yes I know am in the Old Testament, but this is warfare.

It is either you or them, which side you on.

Human spirit can tie up atmosphere too, nothing to do with demons.

I was on a conference call it was a rebroadcasting and I came home from church and went on the call and on the call some ladies was spooking out themselves, they claim they are here grumbling and some noise well it was not from me I don’t have a microphone on my Pc desktop, so I can only listen cannot take part in verbal communication, they were pleading the blood scaring themselves they also most scared me too.

Please I went off and went to the live conference call, call there.  There where the ladies were also called there too, but I was not going to participate in being spooked by nothing. Thank you very much.

I am not exaggerating here but they seemed to be really spooked out by the grumbling, which was background noise.

I heard one of the lady said there is some kind of grumbling well I heard it but it is a rebroadcast it was just back ground noise.

Spooking is contagious just like fear and yawning!!

I said that to say this we really does create some heavy atmosphere that is not really there or should not be there because of our mental thinking, making atmosphere heavy, see how powerful we are then binding demons when it is in our heads. Know the difference.


How many times have you scared yourself?


It was a re broadcast of course there will be some shuffling and  a little extra noise in the recording you will here now that you listening it over.

Scaring themselves and other people thinking something is there that is not.

Hey maybe am wrong to, they may know what I don’t.

Common sense and the Holy sense told me to leave.

I have had enough spook.

I have come a long way but I have not reached yet.

I remember I went to church with my aunty Sharon, Faith Tabernacle, in old road that is the country side, and they had a alter call I went.

But I was never slain in the spirit before I did not know what to expect well that happened to me I went down and I came to myself but I stayed on the floor thinking someone was suppose to come and pick me up because I always see people taking up those that went down well I stayed on the floor with my eyes closed waiting for someone to pick me up, then I realises church is finishing and no one, was coming to pick me up. I said no-no no I was getting up, then there is where I got help. when I started to get up.


So If you are down start getting help will come!

Sharon turned to me after they had finish speaking with me, she said, “You got knock out good.”  “What do you mean?” “You were on the ground long.” I said, “I was waiting for them to come pick me up.” “They did not come so I decide to get up.”  She started to laugh and laugh. “you were the one that is supposed to get up when you come back to yourself.” I said, well I always see them going to the people I thought I am suppose to wait for them.” she said, “You stayed down there all that time.” I said, yes, but I got fed up and I realise church finished and everybody leaving me on the floor so I got up.” More laughing.

On our way home, she lives three or four houses away from the church and situated behind it how the streets are built and how the lots are. I remember what I was wearing walking almost reached the corner to turn my skirt fell down I pulled that thing up so quick that was radical movements. She started laughing more, we went to the beach later in the afternoon I was teased all day all night and weeks I had to warfare then too......lol  My age was 15

If you are where you were three years ago you are back sliding God is a God of increase. I am not where I use to be! There is still more I have to reach God is so deep and wide and full waiting for us to dip out and take part of Him. He never runs empty.

I also attended the church of latter day saints for a small period of time; they were so warm and loving. In high school, Ms Haliday, physic teacher, told me I should  not go there any more because of  some information she said to me, she was also over the Christian group we had in school called teen challenge.

I prayed about it and I use to visit church with my friend Kendra but not often and then my friend Christine invited me to her church since in spring and summer. I finally went and attended for over 11years and months. I went on the 18^th October, 2000.  I  also made 18 in that year, the month before.

I remember what I was feeling and what I was doing and the very clothes I was wearing. Even some smells in the air I remember. I called her up at the last minute, I was praying and my mother was acting out and  I told her I am coming and when I reached I knew that was the place for me, the very first time.

I was and I am a church baby I grew up in church, but in my teens there was some things going on Before the age of ten or eleven I attended the Baptist church attended the vacation bible school got saved in the vacation bible school, had fun   eleven and above started to go to the Rehoboth apostolic church that was something, I got baptised there and did the salvation prayer again.   I was a Christian but there was something and I stopped going I was 13- 16 years old.

I am heading to the place called there, because of destiny, it is calling me and I am answering it. How long will I be afraid and scared? NO more!
 I went to a place taking a chance   and I was sexually assaulted.

I was sexually assaulted I did not report it he was a police in my head how can I report this when I am at his premises, human kind is very unkind, am I not a Christian? what was I doing there? 


They would not understand that I went to reconcile this so called relationship, after I said no more this can't be right but was manipulated that he was the only one for me because I am too out there, crazy and strange, to naive. am I not a christian? 


Miss perfect!

We believers trying to convert demons into husband, stop it.

This man was assign to take me out, there are people that come into our life to take us out we have to know the difference, I told you I am still on warfare.


Change in seasons there is a gate every gate has watch men both good and evil the good is to escort you in the evil is to take you out. still on warfare

You may say every minute I am talking about this, I have to talk about it, a lot of women have been assaulted sexually and the majority are afraid to say because it is done by someone we know or think we love.

This is still warfare how will we fight effectively if we are not told how to dodge bullets and roll over shuffle guns. (I don’t even know the terms and I still don’t have internet to help me find the correct military words it is 10:22 pm 28-2-2012.  It is just this part I added this time not the whole thing)

I am making you aware because instead of becoming bitter, I became better and so can you.

I remember of this incident, 2002. I went to a service and I reached late  it was a group of us and there was some guys in the back, and only back seats were available and they were poking me,in my back and side places men/boys should not be touching a woman/girls and I told them to stop, more than once until tears  started running down my face. 


No one around me said anything but this one person a male said if that was my wife you guys would not be doing that. I was shocked because I am in church you are suppose to be my brother in the lord, weren’t you suppose to defend me, aren’t we our brothers keeper, I felt alone. 


I heard the Holy Spirit saying no kerina don’t do that. I wanted to stop the service and scream and have the biggest tantrum  and scene ever. I heard the Holy Spirit said no you have to go back to them and you cannot let this cause hindrance for you. I thought I was the one being violated.

The Holy Spirit always touches me in this one area especially when He needs my attention pronto.  


I reported it that very the same night to one of the young man mother, she claimed he said it was not him it was this other one I went to the head I reported it to the head, then the young man spoke and said I was not saying anything I probably liked it, then the head said to me, that is what you all coming to church to do and some rest. 


I wanted to knock both of them out.

I had a problem with men I was molested by my grandmother boyfriend and where I use to be after school before my mother come home from work.

I over ate because if you got fat no man would want you, you will be left alone. I even recommend this to my cousins they all watched me and laughed. {They liked boys:) }

On my way home I cried all the way my friend was asking me what happen to you I would not answer her.  I reached home took a shower and I did not sleep I cried all night my grandmother and I, we shared a room and all night she asking me what wrong with me. 


In the morning she told my mother my mother then was asking me what happen I said nothing. Monday Tuesday and Wednesday three days I was calling the head premises to say what I have to say, no answer during those three days The Holy Spirit said I am not going to let you get through. 


You have to learn to depend on me  I was like  well isn’t he suppose to be a father, spiritually. He then said I am you Father  depend on me. He then said, I need you to go back to the very same men you have to go back to them. He also said other things

 Sunday came and I went church reluctantly I was angry and bitter still although The Holy Spirit told me all that.

  After service finished they had cakes and snakes, for visitors and guest, I was told by the head to serve cakes to the visitors, I was wondering if he is mad, any way I was obedient, the same young man I had to serve the cakes to I just really wanted to bark them in his face, I was mad all over again.

I heard, you see what I told you, I was like cakes, no there is more, I struggled with appreciating and hugging and greeting men. I have reached a long way.

Thank you lord.

Ladies and gentlemen there is so much more I can say, but I have to say this because in spite of we have to be obedient to these heads, be submissive even when you are being violated, wronged..... because freedom redemption victory will come, in our obedience.

Season changes,all around yes even in the church, we need to know these things.


Everything I say here is truth if it is a lie Lord Heavenly Father take my Life!!!

This is another incident there was a youth rally going on and although I am eighteen plus living with my mother I have chores and things to do other wise leaving the house coming back that is another drama. This happened after that one above. I received a phone call about why I was not there as yet etc, and some things was said and the above incident just came to the surface in my head. I heard, “if you don’t defend yourself who will”. That was a setup.


By the way that was not the Holy Spirit I heard, it was my flesh, my wounded flesh.

I articulated my words I did not feel that I was rude but I was told that I was rude and out of order and it only seems like I am coming to church for position and do things I was supposed to be on the youth worship team, it was  youth splash rally.


 I was told to sit down and I sat down, never went back there, but I believe ever so much now everything was a set up and I am happy it happened. I learned to be submissive in spite of. I was on training grounds.


I served as an usher after that for ten years and four months it was not my whole elven years and four months 18/10/2000-19/2/2012 under instructions of the Lord.
He learned his obedience through the things he suffered Hebrews5:8 although He was a Son. He was and is the Son Of God Jehovah Father God 


I know we all have different understanding especially unstable thinkers, this is no way insulting or bringing down anyone, my motives are clear  and pure, we in church hide to much, and sweep things under the rugs. 


No one is learning, about these things in the sense of realizing, these things happen to mold  and make us into vessel of honour. Yes the bible is there to  teach but what about modern day journeys. If gospel music can get radical  and everyone think and it is good to draw the lost they can relate they may not take up a bible but read a blog or a book.


And when these things do come out it is to pull down and tear down people reputation family lives and church ministries believers are spilt some are not talking to this group. why it was never down right etc.


The sore was never address and it fester into a nasty wound.
We have festering believers I pray healing to every wounded spirit, body and soul, the whole being in Jesus name amen!


I am saying be submissive. When God tells you leave and they don't understand that is okay too.


Again I am not speaking about your own dark motive am speaking about kingdom purpose.  It is all written.  Hebrews 10:7..... make sure you know what is written.


You may say you have so much or always in the past experiences, don't you have now experiences, the now experiences are  don't worry about that. They too will be written and they already are.




Just like a bow and arrow you have to pull back to go further and or furthest,  pulling back or going back in the past is building speed, momentum  for when the arrow shoots off it hits it target.


Now when you see people acting out like they are crazy it is because they are, they got wounded severely, and were not able to heal or deal with it. 


This is why teaching individual these things are important, don’t they teach children and other individual who are not in the medical field CPR.

Thank you Lord for The Holy Spirit I so appreciate you, and I love you.

Every word I speak here is truth, everything!  

I put my life in His hands to take it if it is not true!

What I share on my blog is truth and my experiences.

Now this is why I never reported, the sexual assault that incident came back to me  and I wonder who would believe me, No one stood up or believed me when I reported this even the very same night after church. 


I was a mess, no one did not recognize or care to see or maybe they failed to see. I believe it was a setup.


I was not functioning right, I took on a lot of work during those periods so I wont be sleeping in the night  so when I reach home in the day I am too tired to think and even sometime I would break down and cry.


The word of God the bible and in the book of  Colossians Helped me and oh how I love Isaiah 1:18


Then that man came in October, that was a month! I took vacation in October by force because someone had their request in September my plans was for my birthday to just be off but know it had to be in October. Set up again

Change has to come, how many more prophets will have to die or implode and or explode?

Another thing church folks seem to wait until a bruise becomes, a sore infected and the limb has to be amputated, and then say people want to do their own thing. 


The limb could have been saved, if we just become mindful and really care and not be wimpy.

You are dealing with lives of real people from different walks and background different levels of understanding when will you become wise.

Again I agree there are some that definitely wants to do their own thing and their own thing is not God thing.

I am taking this chance this risk just like how I saw the rape before I have already seen my future and I have decided to live there.

I am already living there. I am that I am

Good is good but there is better and I want it and I will have it. It is mine for the taking.

To go deeper I created that future, when I was a little innocent girl talking to Jesus and angels. I built it then and He sealed it for me all this time my journey and trials were all a testing ground, training and building and developing and I am going.

For me, you never ever have too much of God teaching and you are never ever too spiritual, but you can be off balance.

Everything I speak here is all truth I swear all of it on the only name I know that can bare me Jehovah God because when man forsake me He never did He was always there even to hell and back. 


He was there with me.

I have let go and moving on my decision has already been made  sealed no more am I holding on to the strings of life But the giver of life.

Everything that is happening I have already seen it before I got previews of it already.... I am not shocked nor am I moved. Surprisingly I have this overwhelming joy and a sense of liberation.. I am at peace! So be at peace.

My strength is in His joy, my joy is in His presence!


It all about letting go, tipping the scale and the wind will prevail.

I have come to another conclusion why people act this way is because that is the role they are playing, can’t help them self, but to act that way. it's written

Oh Lord God have mercy on me Let me do it according to your way, how it is written in your book Hebrews 10:7

Not my way, thank you for ordering my steps in your word thank you for directing my path. You oh Lord have everything in control, and I trust you. Amen

I am still on war far every battle has already been won we just have to learn to walk in them, have faith and trust and believe.

Conclusion; we are one body and love is the greatest commandment, slandering other people names or giving other people the impression of other people, you are in a place of crookedness.

So much I have not said, but for now this is all I have to say, for now

Peace I leave with you.

This battle is not mine it is the lords.

I do understand it is written so go ahead and play you role.

The rejected stones always become the head corner stone.

Love and peace!

Life of victory everyday!