The Words 'Fire Lake' On Prescription

 This dream came after she died- please note that

This is a dream I had that my grandmother was on her bed, in the room we both shared. Well I came into the room and she was moaning or groaning and I am asking her, what’s wrong with you? Do you want water? She said, “It’s in her prescription get the prescription paper” and you will see what it says”.

The idea of me getting the paper was to give her, or go to the drug store to get her medication,  and do as instructed, so she could feel better.

So am looking for the prescription paper, it fell out of the roof or sky, it was folded she normally has her stuff fold and tucked away.

She was a pack rat, and neat they had the neat part in the eulogy always cleaning and decorating, turning around, fixing this, or that, dragging me too, to do the same.

I enjoy decorating and setting out furniture placing them in the right places for the space.

That was not strange, having the prescription paper folded, the falling out the roof thing was strange. 


I was like huh in the dream, I opened it and I read it, and said to her what it says. “Fire lake”. I said, “What the heck is Fire Lake”. 


In the dream I begin to get scared because in my dream I remembered that she is already dead and I woke up.

I went to pray Lord cleanse me, clean my spirit, my mind, soul, body everything.
I anointed myself.  Lord let me hear only what you want me to, see only what you want me to see. 
Sever between me and the spirit world I started to bind generational curses and all that.
 I started to cry lord what is wrong with me. I was scared.

At her funeral they had me do the eulogy they say I speak well and all that.

By the way I have a small tie tongue accent thing going on with a mellow tone of voice.

Anyway I did it, I was crying because the things they had about this woman is not what I know.

The fire lake dream was last year or 2010; the vision was on the same day, morning she died 2009.

 It was not pleasant and you should know by now I like to ask questions and whys.

So I wondered where she went and I had an idea and a knowing because of that vision, but anyway I kept my peace. I told my mother and sisters

When the family came I offered to do a prayer, that prayer is why they had me do the eulogy.

Back to the eulogy scene I was crying and these people thought I was crying because she is dead all that other drama.

I was crying because I was reading crap, I spent my whole life with this woman and what they wrote isn’t what I know and my vision was in front of me.

At  the end of the funeral  service, and burial ceremony, we all got together to eat.
They had me pray again, “someone pray they say”. “call kerina.” I am like, “lord what do they want me to say”. “I know where she is”. And then I said, “I think I know where she is”. And am like,  “how am going to do this.” 

In my head, “Oh my god”. Out of my mouth, “to be absent from the body is to be present with the lord”. 
Then a smart sentence came out, “where she is at she would want us to be happy live life and do right serve the lord”.  And some other things...............They said, "amen".

I know she had some funny bones in her, she was a good entertainer with jokes and food, she could cook, she really knew how to serve people. she was a giver, but who she wanted to give to, and who she thought deserves it.

What I miss is when we both were on good terms the old stories she use to tell and there was some funny ones. I miss when she wanted me to lie down in the bed with her just for company sake.

She would call everyone else to do something or get something for her and am right there, they would make noise like, “kerina is right their why can’t you send her.” She was like “No she lying down, she needs rest”.

Looking at this I just saw something or should I say I understand why now. I use to fight back and say why can’t you send me, then you say I don’t do anything for you.

I use to stop them from doing it sometimes and go and do what she wanted, she was never happy about that part and I really tried to please her. 


When I was not doing what really pleased her.

 My God!

I missed understood what she wanted from me, just my presence.

You know because of this I was stained as the one not wanting to do anything but all she wanted was me to stay right there, and I just realized why.

We are not fighting against flesh and blood but against principalities powers and rulers of darkness and spiritual wickedness in high places; but when light hits darkness it has to flee, even if it is for a moment.

She wanted that from me, there were times when we would read the bible together and try to interpret it, she would say what she thinks it means and I do the same.

She said am short like a base ball bat. She said my eyes are small and twinkly, when I laugh they closed.

When I sleep she makes fun of me, and  say I roll up like a ball, she use to peep over on me, I asked her one time do I snore she said, “No, but you have a funny noise like a mouse you squeak sometimes”. Huh....lol

She made fun of me that when I am calling the word grandmother it comes out grammduh, so they started to say grammduh too.

She was my grandmother in spite of, but fire lake..........hmmm serious!

Souls where are they going after this life?


We as Christian need to show the world that we are believers, sons and daughters of the Most High God.

He cares for the souls of men, their hearts and everything he cares about even your little worries he say don worry about a thing.

From our famous Bob Marley;

He woke up one morning and smiled at the rising sun.....the sun probably said, “Hello bob”.

The man saw three little birds singing melodies pure and true...... not chirping mind you.

 I noticed he said three little birds were at his door steps.

Who is at the door and knocking?

They were singing sweet songs of melodies pure and true, “this is my message to you whoowhooo  don’t worry about a thing every little thing is going to be alright”.

My God what an anointing!

We know about the donkey  talking, but we miss the three little birds singing.............Jesus have mercy!

I am waiting for shiloah to speak, sing and dance?........lol

Three little birds singing........... Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I am thinking.

I am that I am

Jesus Christ came to save and rescue and rebuild and restore and to give everlasting life. That is why He died to restore mankind.

John 3:16 for God so love the world He gave his only begotten son who ever believes in him will not perish but will have everlasting life.

John 3:14 He did not send His son into the world to condemn it but through him that the world be saved.

Sometimes we don’t need to say anything, but just let our light shine, they can see trust me they can see, whether you are true or not even the critiques know when you are true and those critiques that may not know still, it is because their eyes are covered with scales and as soon as those scales fall off they will see.

So let our lives shine before man so they can glorify God Our Father In heaven and on earth and that Lives within us.

In respect of black history month I suppose I can honour this with it.

We have Bob Marley I never met him. I am young.

When I listen to his music I feel his pain and, being misunderstand I here screams of when are you going to get it. I feel joy too.

He has a song that says when he (I) listen to music he feels no pain. What was the pain?

I have not listened to all and what I have listen too I believe and can use my fingers and toes and still have room for more.

The words make you think, what was really inside of this man that gave him the drive?

You feel the passion, frustration of the prejudice and the racial and other barriers and boundaries man created.

My grandmother she represents the conditions of man heart with God, is it right or wrong which side you want to be on, or you just want to be stuck.

We are the ones to show our lives  true lives like a book to be read so they can see Jesus in man.

It is the Holy Spirit that draws man heart to God, through us speaking and living and writings too.

Before it is too late lets be our brothers keeper and watch out & be kind love one another spread the gospel not just in words but in your life

I only believe in one race that is the human race every one of us had some sort of prejudice done towards us or a family member.

My skin is Browne, my great grandmother skin is white, my grandmother skin is what we call coloured, mix, light skin, maltose and my great  grandfather is really dark, a black man.

Our tongues although we don’t speak it; from both side we get Dutch, French Spanish, Africans tongues and English I speak English... hello

We are all one!

We are all connected to each other.

To be logical and practical there are boundaries, and issues still.

I am looking at myself not as a black woman or mix woman.

I am Woman!