I need more

I need more than that, always in a school too though, hmmm.........oh my just realize something.Why I got up set was a quote "If you want to be with him....master the king domain". I got upset.

He said to me come off but know I waited. He knows me so well. In the morning. When I read it it was not even the same. Was not so emotional!

Even though am off still peep now and again saw something, "verbal correction .... and silent love inappropriate".

Fairy tales.... -_-

I need something tangible, I prayed last night Lord I need a touch he touched me in the school more like a brush....but I need more!!

Why do I need more I always seems to need and want more, it's never enough?

Lord draw me close to you closer that I ever been it's more than survival but relationship to commune with you Lord, wrap me in your arms.

I had a dream the in the school, in an air plane celebrating and dancing and singing,
buying a real estate
The last one was about lending and not borrowing the scripture in the bible
and also came was owe no man nothing
and also borrow from your neighbour if you don't have  to pay your debt then I wonder isn't all that a contradiction?

Well my dream, this part of it was like this,  this woman barge unto our premiss  for a another person that was living or staying with us. That person bought something from this woman and the woman came for her money at least half of what was owed. The woman was serious and wanted to barge in our house I stop her at the door.  I knew I did not had enough money in my purse to help but when I did decide to go and help to give her half I say the hold thing and other money appeared in my purse I was like wow!

I told the lady that owed and borrowed it from me, I need it back it's a loan then I felt something no that not it let her have it and I said okay it's not a loan you can keep it. The lady that barged unto our premises did not want to take it from her, because she knew it came from me, then I started to quote the scripture about the above scripture statement and she said okay.

Now am awake, we were discussing me and  the Holy Spirit, maybe it was just me in my head, about the  scriptures verse mention above.

He said this is true giving,  because I was like isn't this a contradiction?
I understand the concept.
It's a place we are suppose to be...able and willing to help and give without looking back from man but always look to God. God is our source.

I am really trying to stay away from here, for the time being.
Use my journals to vent.
I find this is my way of communicating  to you.