Selfless love

Sometimes you may say something and it is only meant for you. What is for me does not mean it is for you. What I can do that does not mean you can do it too. 

In reference to marriage and being one, I see people married and they are not one. I see people married and they are one. I see people married and they are not united the way I made reference to being one.

I said something here and I realise that was for me, I felt it, but did not understand it, thought it was so for all, but it is not.

To make any relationship work we all have to learn to be selfless.

I never said anything about this until now in 2006, I met this guy a police again me and this girl friend went for a drive, it was my 22nd or 23rd birthday and she and I went around the country side, to this historic place called black rock where the volcano left it marks on the island. We limed there for a while chilled made friends with some children hanging around, they lived in that village.

On our way back we got a flat tire and everyone passed us, we stop and asked for help but no one helped, one man said he coming back I believe we are still waiting.

She did not know how to change a tire and me well I knew how to communicate.....lol 

This young man came and at first we did not know he was a police, invited him to church and that whole drama.  Before all that though the Lord showed me a house, well I got a word from a lady in church her motto is, "the word works" and it does if you work it this part is her motto too. She has died cross over into the arms of our Lord.

She told me the lord showed her a house that I have been asking Him for, and that the Lord have the house, it’s on the hill for me a nice cottage etc. I asked Him where it is one day He told me to look up and there it was right in the neighbourhood on the hill.   

I saw everything about the house the owner and the bank situation and even the colour of the house that is painted right now this day. This house was a blank shell roof was not finished nothing was in it other than windows and doors but abandoned the owner run away too much debt on his hands so the house became the bank property delinquent. 

In a dream everything was revealed, all I had to do was act and I acted got information that proved what I dream was correct. Right now the type of people living in it I saw in one of the dreams.

I received the signed documents title deed in a dream, the only strange thing about that dream it was on the roof top of the bank I received the documents and signed it etc.

I made appointment to meet with the personnel that deals with delinquent properties and calling the bank about this house and what is next and the biddings and the rest stories.

 I told this girl I am believing God for this house and it was revealed in a dream etc. I would go up and sweep out the house pray I loved praying in the garage.

I don't believe these things should happen with believers but it does happen, I liked this young man and she liked her former boyfriend and she said to me kerina lets pray for each of them, for salvation and they could come into the kingdom and yes we agreed to pray, okay I agreed and we agreed and I asked her okay agree with me on this house too. (Talking about the police man that fixed our flat tire)

We started to pray for salvation and healing  in every area of their lives then I started to see some things  and little young me did not quite understand all of it and I started to tell her she started to pull away I saw every nasty detail that was going between them. I thought I was the me being insecure from dreams to passages in the bible I am telling her  about them all passages and we have to fast something wrong is going  in his life another woman etc.  I saw him but the female in the dream was not clear I felt it was her but I did not want to believe that, I figure is me being critical and insecure self esteem drama all that.

I got proverbs with harlot on her horse story she started to say I am strange and at the ending now I found out they were involved and the whole drama thing and blew it up in my face, that I did not want him I never told him how I feel and all that. I said well I don't have to sleep with him to let him know I am interested (That is also where miss perfect thing came in) prayer was enough. 

By the way he is now seriously committed save believer. I continued to pray for him and his daughter she was baby at that time until I became free of that pain.

I also prayed for her she is back in church as well. I want o say this what hurt me more was the fact she was suppose to be a sister holding or having my back in prayer.

Yes I felt hurt with the guy too, it was just a hero syndrome thing rescued us from a flat tire. A lot of individuals fall into relationship that should not be because of the hero syndrome, they did not know the difference. Did I know the difference? Yes

However when I started to see him in the dreams and the struggle I thought well maybe this is it. He is free now.

She knew I liked him because I would tell her; she was the first one that ever called me that name the six letter word seriously. I said prayer opens things up. 

I lost some weight my goodness I started to write a book called selfless love then the computer crash and I lost it but the devil dumb it's in my head hello maybe he was counting on me never say anything. 

Sometimes we all make mistakes and misunderstand messages and instructions etc.

This is funny all day long today this was in my head just this part what am about to say. 

I heard of this person putting out his wife out of their bedroom when he has to pray to be with the Lord.  A bedroom that they made love in, conceive and sweat and cry etc. That was never ever supposed to happen, if you want to spend time with the Lord you are suppose to have that time. Yes indeed. In a different room if you cannot do it with her in there, because that room is like both of you cocoon and when you are in the prayer chambers she is in the cocoon, life and what you receive will be getting to her still because that is both of you incubator, no defilement is in that room. She will be receiving what she is suppose to be getting  just by being in the cocoon although you are in the prayer chambers that bedroom is  a special place that you both share it is not to be separated like that.

Lord you want me to say this all day I was like no not me. I had already written this I was just editing.

This person I love and admire He is also some one that helped me with the emotional pain and suffering I was going through I also had a vision of him telling me don’t be afraid don’t listen to the negative  of the choices I have to make and the steps to take. There is a sweet anointing on his life.

Even the best of us miss it and messes up I am not judging as you can see I was running. The Lord does set me up.

That is what he is doing counting on us not to open our mouths and sweep everything under the rug and be afraid to speak. Expose him for what he is a liar.

Now if you are going to speak what is true and right and what edifies and corrects not break down.

I use to pray for the police force too I felt released so I stopped. Now and again I would.

I never ever prayed for anyone the way I prayed for him until recently, and when I feel that deep I would pull back, it obvious I am scared and I need to release and remove the walls I have up.

There is something about the word, the action, the emotion, the character of love it is selfless and pure. Love motives and intentions, it is never there to harm.

Love separates the lusters and bust them out.

It is sad to say a lot of people do not know the difference between love and lust, and even if you do sometimes you settle for less and I would know. I have been there do not let anyone make you believe that you don't deserve the best, or your standards are too high. 

I am not talking about crazy notion of what you think a man or a woman should be or look like and have.

You can find true love in someone you least expect, treat them kind resolve you issues quickly, don't hesitate to say am sorry, even if you have to say it first. Always say I love you, you may never know if that is their last day with you.

I have built some walls in keeping out wrong and bad people you may say I have all rights too, but what if now those same walls are keeping out the right and good people or person, how do you get them down?

Those walls becomes a hindrance to your future, every city needs a fortified walls. Did you build a gate?

Do you have the keys?

The watch men over my heart, Holy Spirit help me!

Selfless Love do you have it?

Selfless what does this mean?

This is not wear you are being taken advantage of or walked upon. Although you may be selfless in you love towards others those very things can happen to you. How do you deal with it. I can only say in prayer because that is what I know. I cannot say what I don’t know or something that does not mean anything to me.

Again I say if what I say is not true Lord take my life!

I pray this today Lord I don’t want o be talking and am not right, search me deal with me, correct me, help me, deliver me. Talking to you about Jesus Jesus and my life and relationship is wacked with Him.

What is the use, whose hell is going to get hotter mine or yours?

I have to say my life is first in his hands!

I am working on my running reflex O_o

(    *    _   *    ) smile life of victory everyday~Love