For five years before march 2010, I have been off and on with my giving, up and down one time I give another time, in doubt. Being stingy and finding excuses because I just did not see a reason to give while am living from paycheck to pay check. Sometimes am happy some times am sad. I still attended church I still had dreams I still read my bible he still spoke to me and I spoke to him because I really loved him and I still do this day.
I appreciated the fact that I was alive and can breath, be happy and be sad, I really appreciated him and was thankful, but there really were some days, you just want everything to stop. He spoke more so about how much he loves and cares, this will pass and other things sometimes.
I believed sometimes, and other times I did not. Days came when I wanted to quit, I tried but it just wont go away He wont leave me alone. I even thought that Jesus only spoke to me in trouble times because I felt him more then, sometimes. I also use to wonder was It me causing these trouble times.
In August 2009 I sowed seed that I felt an urge to do, for a specific purpose land. It was my last effort trying to to obtain land I said to myself. It was a Ninety dollars seed, by October the first couple of days I received a letter in the mail that I was approved to received land I felt that breakthrough.
Then another shift, downward spiral. Why things weren't happening the way they should have been. In march 2010 I was never the same, I literally felt scales fall off my eyes that day, however I almost shut down in terms of faith and hope. I still believed in God, Jesus and everything I Believed in him still because in 2004 I had an encounter, death and life John 10:10 came out of my mouth just like this. "What manner of man is this, I heard, "I have come to give life but he is here to steal, kill and destroy."
In everything though I could not give up on Jesus it was just a matter of will you do what you say you will do. Will you bless me, will you help me for real. I know you have but I mean more not just materials but something more, when will there be rest and peace in my life? Lord when!
But I just believed, other people can be blessed have successful business wonderful relationships have friendship, have it all, living on top of the world.
I found a song, " the strong will survive." It was like my national anthem you have to be strong, fierce and mean to survive in this world. In July it lost it touch I needed more...
In July I heard something I did not believe what I heard I thought that was me hoping, I payed it no mine. In October "Rejection came to give, new direction." Jehovah God met me there. After that I was still surprised, shocked, amazed, perplex I had all sorts of feelings. I had to calm myself pull myself together then everything I went through was all because of this. APPOINTMENT WITH DESTINY..
In September 2010 I had a dream I was driving a big blue lorry truck at first going out of control but I got control of it, the mood of the day was sunny blue skies and a sudden wind blew and their was a piece of material in the wind that blew my way into or over the truck I woke up. I felt something.
I remember telling my friend about it and said to her, get yourself prepare... things will be happening. Things really start shifting in October for me and on wards.
Money is a natural tangible currency in the earth that you can feel and smell etc. It is the only thing so far I know that is natural that can represent you in the spirit realm The seed speaks volume into you life your future even when it seems like all hell is breaking lose. The hell that seems to be breaking lose is a battlefield training grounds to develop what God place in you.
Money matters and to receive you have to give, sow with a willing heart. After I got this in my spirit I started to sow more and pledge hey I still got pledges out there that am working on because NOW I know.
For some it will be a quick turn around for some like me progressively and remember things are not always what they appear to be The lord gave me this in June after I saw something that made me really mad, am good now 2 Corinthians 10:7 and what I saw in June I dream about it in October I feel like laughing. I AM!
If money was not so important why would the enemy be fighting against the church having it, why would he be telling you if you get money you will be greedy, you wont do what you say you will do with it. If you believe what the enemy say his words will manifest so stop listening to the enemy and you "inner me." He is a liar! Why marriages and family break up, because lack of money, People die because of the lack of money, they had health issues. The state the world in right now is because they say lack of money. If you talk and look like and about money people look at you differently.
MANIFEST THE WORD OF THE LORD! You will indeed do what you told God you will do with the money, it's for his kingdom. When the Lord says this is yours for your faithfulness and you want to buy or build a large house drive a big car have a jet GO AHEAD! Everything is his anyway, and as sons and daughter you have a right to them. Romans 8:14
The world can talk about money and budgets so can I. money money money!
My mom and others in my culture, (I don't know about other cultures really) would be like you got the thing for me, what thing, the thing, what thing, in a low voice the money. I came up feeling like money was a dirty word.
Am liberating my self with the Help of the Lord!
Isaac sowed in the land when it was in famine by the instruction of the Lord and he received his harvest in that same year and double.
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