I feel open and exposed right now here! All I know is that all my life I have been trying to fit in and was never able to quite do that. Yes I made some friends, I would be labelled as weird etc. Even with my family, am not just having dreams or seeing things it did not just happen to me it was like that all my life, I even got in trouble for it when I was five-six.
I had a dream I saw my mom use someone belongings in a dream and some where some how I spoke what I saw to the wrong person, that created a in my life stigma, every time I say something I had to prove that it is the truth. At the age of five years old I was labelled as a liar because of that dream.
The dream was so real I did not know the difference, they keep asking me why I said that it is not true stop telling lies, but I keep answering is because I see it. I see mommy use it, over and over they would ask me the same question and I would give them back the same answer I see mommy use it, even some of the neighbors got involved interrogating me.
When we would go by other family members they would do the same thing over and over, and I never budge to say well I made it up. I kept my same story, I got lashes for it. (I guess I was not smart yet) They started to say, "do not say or do anything in front of that child." (me ) "she will give you a jail." that experience stayed with me. After my experience in October 2011 with Jesus I was free of that. I understood. I got peace about everything gradually.
Here is the funny part after a couple of weeks my mother said the thing I dream that she can't do it because I done say it, and it was not true. The dream I had was that she went into the neighbor kitchen to use his stove and cooking gas becasue hers finished. Well her gas finished and wanted to use the neighbors because she was cooking I guess needed to finish it.
In 1991 January I was 8 years I lost my friend in the carnival season last lap new years parade jamming session in the night. The adults plan was to leave me alone there, to go get ice cream they say, but I knew what they really wanted to go and do I was smart.
I refused to stay because of an uneasy discomfort I had in my stomach and remembering some dreams of a terrible accident When I say I refused I mean I refused to stay so, he decided he will I tried to convince him not to stay, but he stayed fell asleep on the truck fell off and it run over his head crushed some parts of his head and died. More discomfort in my belly. Yes I cried all night we were close my mom and his mom was close, so automatically both of us were close as well.
When all hell seems to be breaking lose in your life and everything and everyone around you are adding more distraction and destruction to your life the person you can turn too is Jesus, even when you don't feel him he is there. He came to heal, mend and build lives of those shattered miss understood fragments. Jehovah God really cares He gave his only Son Jesus. Jesus gave the Holy Spirit the comforter teacher Three in one so divine sovereign and cares so much. When you think you losing everything there is double for your trouble your latter will be greater than your past. All things are possible with Jesus every emotional, physical, mental & spiritual scares can be healed yes spiritual your spirit is apart of you too it feels your drive and hurts that is why he said he come to make us whole, everything.
I Am Healed I Can Move On!
He Did It For Me He Can Do It For You
Jesus Loves You
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