I look to her for strength

This little girl I look to her for strenght because  all that is wriiten in The lords book concerning me is because of her prayers. the things I wished I did not have to go through was to get me back there back to her prayers, and what she loved and she loved  the lord. I do too don't get me wrong.  I know this because He showed me and remind me of it and I feel it inside me.
Jesus said the greatest in the Kingdom is these little ones and it is true As we grow we try to put away our childlike behaviours  and that is good, but if we keep our child like faith and curiosity and imagination, we would see the kingdom of heaven as it is, on earth.

Last night I read something, I  did not like what I read and it stirred up some feelings that I was having  my emotions spilled out. The night before I dream about it, I got fed up wanted to turn over my duties to someone else in the dream  it was the spirit of depression because of the feature of me looking tired with dark circle around my eyes in the end though I had to take it back up so before it happen last night I dream about it the night before.

I could not even sleep until I apologize to him, Him the Lord.

I am not perfect, but I am striving to be holy because that is possible He said it, so I can achieve it!

I have her picture up because looking at it gives me strength.

Yes I look to God

But with some more understanding I realize she touched the heart of God. How did she  do it?  she is my hero.

Because of her prayers, she actually believed she was talking to God.

Sometimes I still question myself if it's me scrabbling to make sure God is you said I even try the Gideon stunt, Lord if it's you do this, confirm this turn this into something.... serious....

I remembered  her prayers and what she asked and what she stated she wanted to do and it pleased Him. I felt when she prayed, where it came from, deep within, she meant it every word she said and He knew and is performing those words to come to pass, she is His vessel and I can not stop it.

Adult knowledge can  hinder. God's knowledge  liberates 

My first cooking experience

My grandmother taught me how to cook, normally I would be in the kitchen with her, her little assistant however It paid off. My first cooking endeavour at the age of ten, was rice and peas with chicken inside a small version to cook-up that is a Caribbean dish, consist of numerous items such as peas, rice,chicken, pig-snout and or pig tail, salt-fish  and other ingredients  such as the salt and onions etc.
When I finish the pot, the peas was not cooked. -_- although that was the case this lady named rosa  she is not alive anymore...lol enjoyed while the rest laughed at me and so on

Cook-up is a Caribbean dish  that everything can go in one pot not at the same time though

Music

Music is sweet and it calms the roaring sea in you soul and spirit. I like the african beats melody and Latin music well my grandmother use to play  her Latin string band and  I grew  up on music my mother loves her music and then so did I, my sister oh my. Well my mother side, grandmother  and her mother side is Portuguese and Dutch people that is where the Latin music came in form I suppose and I like it.

My grandmother dad is a Blackman 95 and still is alive went by him on Monday. He played the flute in his days he loves music. He goes to church he gave his heart to he Lord, I don't know if it been ten year since, but he smoked and drink almost all his life, he use to send us to buy his cigarettes. Gods mercy

His nick name is ford because he out ran a ford truck in his day. The man is 95  why you think he strong, am not even thirty as yet  not far though  what and who will I out run.....the enemy -_- only in Jesus by the way It is already done!!!

Other than Father God, this 95 years old man is the only man I called daddy it is indeed a special word!!

I  was speaking to him one day and ask daddy what you father was like, what is his name, he said that he barely knew his dad he went Santo Domingo and never came back he heard he died for he was gambling and chopped off a man butt because of feud, went to hide in the forest and died he say, they say. So I asked what was his name Ezekiel Foster

Anointing breaks yokes. It only is a struggle when you don't want to be free, or lose from what keeps you in bondage. I am not saying the anointing is weak

The anointing is the power of God and it can manifest  at ranges example from 1-100 it can increase as well as decrease. 1-100 is not a limit on God's power.  Because it is the anointing at 1 you can even be free but it comes  with if you want to be free if you like the things you do and don't want to give them up you will struggle with getting free.

Why was I able to break free because I wanted to be free as well.  I don't like to be in boxes  I hate to be manipulated, turn and twisted I don't like loads I don't carry loads, I DON'T EVEN LIKE TO CARRY MY HAND BAG WHEN IT TOO HEAVY. It's not in my nature I really get uncomfortable uneasy around bondages emotional ones too, I can't rest every time there is a knot. I really don't like it!!!

However my hand bag is almost always heavy, books and bottle of water and the rest stuff, sometimes my laptop it's a big hand bag o_O that is when am going to work.

I remember this every time I go to church or somewhere I would have two or more bags and I would give them  to Shauna and tell her hold them  until it was noticeable everyone was like every time you have load you pass them to her. The other day we were joking about it because she gave me  something to hold and I was not happy about it.

Shauna was the lady that gave me the offering to carry up  because she was not going to make it o_O set up don't you think. The other things that was going through my head was that she always can't make it,  it's a norm for her, look what is happening this money I wonder if it's good -_- set up

Deliverance comes easy when you want to be free as well!
That is a very true statement.

Things I like to do that I need to stop that is a struggle to get rid off; but the things I don't like and need to stop in a few days it's gone seriously.

Honestly I am emotional sometimes, sensitive I really try to be strong, speak strong, look strong, but I burst in tears when am by myself.
I don't know why humans are the way they are, well I do know, but I mean why?

Writing makes me feel better.......... even though am all over here

Emanuel  God is with me
Writing make things legal you said I have written it, I give everything back to You just to have You!
Lord am writing this for you, I know you are reading but I need you more I rather have you  than the things of this world I know you can keep me I know you can because you have and you can do it again. Is there any thing to hard for you to do. NO!

I just figured out something some headaches are caused by when we start thinking and using our brain it hurts because the brain is a muscle and you have not been using it. You became passive, that now you start using your brain it hurts.

 Exercise hurt if you have not been doing it, it hurts the muscle.

I love to pray

I love to pray, I enjoy praying If I don't pray I will commit a sin.  God forbid that I don't pray. I love to pray, I love to pray, I enjoy prayer.
I will Blessl the Lord with my prayer. My prayer I love to pray.

I love to see and Hear what You show me Lord in prayer time. In my prayer times there is fullness of joy, peace wisdom and knowledge, instructions for miracles and rest. I love that prayer time creates and births expectation  in me. It builds my faith. My faith in you is absolute acceptance of the fact, that you will perform your words.

I see your face in prayer, I feel you in prayer I hear your heart in prayer and I love you lord!
In prayer entering your presence and holies of holy  no selfishness is there, and you show me your heart and you touch my heart. you show me your visions and show me mine and it's all the same and one, you are indeed my dad.
The Father business is my business and I love it!

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I am the one!