closure! 3

March 2010 was a shift I thought was the end of me. But in October and on wards I got the best shift ever. I know I said it started in October true, but in July he told me about it in a weird way. He ask me it in a question, then answered it. Well I thought it was me. Then he gave me Jerimiah 31:22 I did not went looking for this this came out to me. I was at work in the night sitting in the chair the bible watching me and me watching it . I heard pick up your bible I did, and as I open it there it was I was like Lord. Then I was pressed to define compass, It means to navigate, to surround, to understand to succeed in carrying out etc

The He started to speak to me about a role of a woman is not to control a man, but it's to help them. Not to tare them down, but to build them up, surround them with prayers encouragement and more. He gave other scripture passage and so forth concerning  me.... it's one day at a time though.

Still why was on my mind, a show was on TBN a man with a scare face was in the some military accident he had and he said why lord why this had to happen to me, he said  because I CAN TRUST YOU AND I HEARD THERE IT IS BECAUSE I CAN TRUST YOU EVERYTHING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO YOU WAS NOT BY CHANCE. 

Even though I have allowed you to see it and yes you had a choice I was with you always. So many people feel like He have abandoned them but it it us who abandons him.

Not another sad story again. My dad die when I was a little bit more younger than now about 8 years ago.

when I was seventeen I wrote him  letter because he was never in my life that I can recall he blame my mother for that. Well he responded a couple of months after came to visit a couple more month after then he decided to file for green card for us his children not by the same woman though in June he was here with went back to his home in St . Croix got sick had to go to the hospital in New Jersey and have kemo therapy. 

During all that I was praying for him  one night in church I heard the lord said, "NO it is not time for you to leave St. kitts." am like what. I really wanted to get out of the country I felt I was being held back in every area  I said, "okay lord your will be done." Everything was okay he still going through with the papers I did not say anything to anyone about it. 

Decided to still do the paper works and so, because at least when I can go I would have these things done. Someone turned up the fire, some where things where happening I decided I was going straight out. No holding back from the time I decided that things got worst for my dad well he called me two days before and said he is  out of the hospital he is doing fine then on the Friday he died I got the news at work I  started writing at my desk constantly non stop then someone came over realized and I just let them have it. 

After I broke down in tears got the afternoon off, I did not went straight home I was walking aimlessly in town I entered into a book store went through the Isles I heard look up on a coffee cup I say Isaiah30:21 Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “ This is the way, walk in it,” Whenever you turn to the right hand Or whenever you turn to the left. 

I blamed my self for his death, He healed me from that too.

Well last after all of that he gave me Proverbs 4:25-27 Let your eyes look straight ahead, And your eyelids look right before you.  Ponder the path of your feet, And let all your ways be established. Do not turn to the right or the left; Remove your foot from evil.

So I had to get out all the resentment hatred, everything I know and did not know  I was feeling.

I can say so much here, about what he said and where I am going but I will say this;

HE IS THE RESTORER OF OUR LIFE AND RE-BUILDER OF OUR WALLS IN OUR LIVES WHEN IT HAS BEEN BROKEN DOWN BY our own bad decision or THE ENEMY.

I have closure, I can move on there is more for me than those or what is against am living and am not ashamed anymore. My future is bright, yours will be too trust him one day at a time...

It's Just The Beginning 

He showed me my future I have decided to live there and not even me can stop it!

To God be the glory

Love

Life Of Victory Everyday